Kitten

24

*mature content in chapter*

Everything seemed to be falling back into place with Niall back home, but I felt like I was on edge all the time still. I felt like I had to have him in my line of sight at all times and attached to my hip, just so my nerves will calm. I still couldn't sleep most nights even being next to him, probably since I've made it such a habit. I slowly and quietly made my way out of bed to not wake Niall and can into some running clothes, I glanced at the clock and saw it was only 2am. Before I left I kissed his forehead, he stirred in his sleep turning over. He was shirtless so I had a full view of his scared back, I wish I could do something to make them go away so he wouldn't have to feel them and we both could forget about it.

As I made my way to my little home gym I past Mary doing laundry.

"Still not sleeping?"

"I sleep sometimes, I'm trying to get back into it." I shrugged like it was nothing but it actually being serious.

"he won't be happy that your still not sleeping you know. He's worried about you." She gave me a pitiful smile and continued her task before leaving. I walked into the gym starting my music and letting it take me to another place.

I lost track of time for how long I was in there but when I began my cool down I noticed that it was earlier morning. I finished my workout and walked to the kitchen to eat and cool off.

Walking in I already saw Niall and Mary talking over tea.

"Good morning baby." I smiled at him kissing his temple and I noticed hat he gave Mary a look. She gave him one back and left the kitchen to us.

"Is everything okay?" I asked worried as he just casually sipped his tea. He looked comfy in one of my hoodies but still looked like he hadn't slept in days.

"Are you doing okay Zayn? You're worrying me about you not sleeping-"

"I'm alright baby. I just have to break my habit." I smiled at him and began making some oatmeal. I heard him come up behind me turn me around so my back was against the counter. I chucked at him and his sudden want to be the one in control.

"I'm serious Zayn. You could be hurting you're self and I need you to be healthy to keep up with me." He gave me a smirk as he was got closer to my face like he was going to kiss me, but ended up kissing my cheek and strutting back to his tea.

"I'm going to go take a shower if you want to join at all." He set his mug in the sink and continued to swing his hips back and forth upstairs. This sudden change in attitude is something I could get used to. Leaving my food were it sat I moved quickly up the stairs but waited for him to get in the shower. I stood by the open door seeing him undress, and give his back a quick look before getting in the shower.

I quietly walked in and undressed as well as I climb in the shower with him gently gripping his hips. He turned in my arms and gave me a sly smile before capturing my lips with lust and hunger.

As I started to move my hands from his hips he pulled away and looked at me breathless.

"Before we continue, I want you to promise me that you'll get back to actually sleeping. And not just laying there letting me think you're asleep till 2 in the morning." I chuckle at him but nodded.

"I promise I'll try to get out of my habit but I can't promise that I won't get up to workout early in the morning." He gave me a look but I started to kiss his neck making him grip my wet hair.

"As long as you're sleeping." Before he could say anything else I hit the one spot on his neck that gets him moaning. He let a soft one out and his grip got tighter while his other hand tried to grab my shoulder blade.

I smiled against his skin and turned him around so his back was facing me. I ran my fingers down him not even hesitating against the thick lines of scars.

"You're so beautiful and I love you." I kissed his shoulder gently as his head rested against he tile wall. I kissed down his back gently, taking my time, as I got to his behind. Kissing each side I starting prepping him. I stood again with my fingers still in him as he a moaning mess. His finger tips were white as he pressed them on the wall.

"Do you want me to continue?" His eyes shut tightly as he moaned, my pace with my fingers increasing.

"I want to hear you say it baby." My other hand went to his manhood as I pumped my hand his words started to slur.

"Y-yes. Fuck p-please, I w-want to feel you again." I let a moan escape from me at that and I slowly entered him. Both of us let out a loud moan at the missing feeling. Once he was used to me I picked up my pace and gave him love bites on his shoulders and neck.

"F-fuck Zayn, please." I pulled out of him and turned him around so I could kiss him hungrily and continue. His fingers were gripping my hair roughly and moaned in my mouth. I could feel him getting closer with me, I looked at him with lust and love as he reaches his high, mine soon following after him.

Once we were calmed and relaxed Niall wrapped his arms around me bring me into a hug.

"I love you. Please never let me go." My hug got tighter as I told him he was mine forever.

We finished the shower with cold water but we wear clean and smiling.

For the rest of the day we just lied in bed and spent time with each other. I wanted everyday to be like this and him laughing and being in my arms. Once we pulled up Netflix and started watching movies I started to fall asleep. I let sleep take me as I had Niall cuddled up against my side.

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