pepper spray ! tysh

71 | josh

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J

i'm sitting here on the bathroom tub with my skin on fire wondering if this is how your eyes felt that day. i don't have the courage to tell you.

it's not necessarily something easy to just say out loud without feeling completely vile.
and i know i should've said something from the get go. perhaps if i had you could be here for me right now.
perhaps i was an idiot to think i had gotten past my trauma.
perhaps my need for independence will cost us this relationship.
i know you want me to open up;
let you in on the manifestation in my mind.

although after your outburst i don't feel as safe as i used to.
i don't know anymore.

maybe it's me being selfish but,

i hope the silence we're sharing isn't taking a toll on you.

i'll call soon.

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i love josh dun.