Beautiful Scars [1] ✔

AUTHOR REQUEST:

Many of you haven't heard from me on Wattpad, and for that, I apologize. Beautiful Scars, after almost four years, has gotten so many views and all of this turned into more than I would have ever imagined. At fifteen, I never could have pictured this book to be so successful.

But, then again, I never pictured I would be self-publishing at the age of 18. In December, in honor of the beginning of the worst relationship I have ever been in, I have decided to self publish. Last December, right before 2017, I became romantically involved with a guy who lives in Michigan. At the time, it seemed perfect. He said he loved me. Love..didn't turn out the way I wanted it to.

Love, with him, meant emotional abuse. It meant hating every part of myself. Being degraded. Feeling so worthless that life had no point. Through dreams, the physical abuse..haunted me as well. I was so emotionally numb that writing..didn't even seem to resonate with me, until I was at my wits end.

This novel that you have read, for whatever reason, was born out of my own insecurity of looks. I've always felt myself to be an unattractive person, especially whenever I was 15, because at that age, that was whenever the bullying and everything was at its worst. That's whenever my self harm started. That's whenever I felt I was worthless, although you, my readers, if I'm being honest, were the only things keeping me going.

My goal as a writer has always been to help others, the way I wished someone would have helped me whenever I needed them. I wrote this novel to help other girls, other people, who felt alone. Because..I know how bad of a spot I was in whenever I self harmed and did all of those things, without going to someone, because I didn't want to burden them with my problems. Writing was a way for me to blend fact with fiction, to get my emotions out without worrying about being judged, because this novel, nonetheless was me, even if anyone else couldn't recognize that.

With that goal in mind, this novel, "shatter", is being written to help out many of other girls who confused love for what I had, just like I did. It's to show that even though life hands you a fucked up deal, you control the outcome. It's to show that you can overcome anything, with the right mindset.

This novel is to be published through Kindle Direct Publishing, for e-book, and CreateSpace, for print. I'm going to be uploading a few chapters of this work to Beautiful Scars, so I can honestly get reactions from readers, and if need be, publish on here to get exposure. I just want you guys to help me out here, because I'm trying to help you, help others, inspire more people, and if there's anyone out there who would do this for me, I can't tell you how much I would appreciate it.

Because no one deserves to feel alone.

Everyone is worthy.

Regardless of what HE said, you matter.

And never forget it.