The Force Between Us // Kylo Ren

Chapter XVI

I WENT TO BED last night feeling as confused as ever dreading having to go training tomorrow. Not wanting to face the embarrassment when I see Kylo.
      So when I hear a knocking on my door in the morning and a voice telling me to get dress. I let out a giant groan and I roll out of my bed. I rub my eyes trying to get the morning haze out of my vision. I look in my closet hoping there is a new outfit and to my surprise there is. I put on some tight pants, a tight tank top and some knee high boots. I tie my hair up into a pony tail and walk to the mirror to observe myself. I silently admire myself and the walk to the door just as it slides open. A storm trooper takes me to the training room and I am a little disappointed that it is not FN2187. I try to ask the trooper about him but he doesn't talk to me. Though the walk is long my leg doesn't bother me and I am grateful it finally healed.
     When I walk into the room I am surprised at how large it is. The room is so big you could probably fit five X-wing fighters in it. I also notice that there is an observation booth near the celling, which is so high that you can barely make out the pipping that runs across it. The room is bare except for a rack that holds different type of blasters and swords. I walk over to the rack intrigued by the different weapons. The Resistance never had this many models and this made me realize just how pitiful the Resistance looks compared to the First Order.  I am about to pick up a blaster that has three barrels when I am startle by a voice, "Beautiful." I put my hand on my heart to try and stop it from racing as I give  the figure emerging through the shadows a confusing look. He must of sensed my confusion because he tried to recover by saying, "I mean the weapons. The weapons are beautiful aren't they?" I turn away from Kylo blushing because I know he wasn't talking about the weapons.
   "Yes they are." I replied back. Turning to face him once I know the heat from my cheeks disappeared.
    "However you won't be using those today. The first step in mastering the Force is learning the mind tricks."
     Throughout training Kylo test me trying to get me to break his mental barrier but I never succeed. He begins to grow impatient with me as I try my hardest to Force my mind into his but i can't break through. Beads of sweat start to form and I finally pull away after I start to feel light headed.
    "Your not trying! You stupid girl I saw what you can do what you can achieve. So stop fooling around."
   His words hurt me confused that just last night I saw a caring Kylo Ren and now I see a Kylo Ren full of hate and seduced by power. "I am trying! I just can't do it!"
     He glares at me and replies back sneering, "Maybe you just need a little push." I instantly start to feel a sharp pain in the back of my head. I don't know what it is until I realize that he is in my head. I feel him break down my first mental barrier as I try to push using my own Force to stop him but he keeps moving forward digging deeper into my memories. My brain begins to start to throb and I bring my hands to my head trying to ease the pain.
  "Kylo please stop your hurting me." But he doesn't stop if anything he pushes harder and I feel myself being unraveled as he reads all of my feelings and emotions like a book. I feel naked as no secret is left on read. I begin to push harder trying to stop him as he nears my darkest secrets. Ones that I don't even know I have until he unlocks them. His probing brings a flood of memories of when I was little with my parents. About how happy they were until that one fateful day when the first order came to my village and destroyed everything. I remembered how my dad tried to protect my mother and me from the troopers but he was shot and killed in front of my mother. She tried to run away but a blaster hit her in the leg making her not able to walk so she starts to crawl away. She finds a closet and stashes me away in it. The last memory I have of her is her smiling face shining down at me as she says your my little ray of sunshine and don't you ever forget that. Her eyes role to the back of her head as I see a trooper standing over her pointing a blaster at her head. She slumps over me blocking the view from the murder. The trooper doesn't see me and leaves me to be found by the Resistance. The memory it to much for me to handle as I push with all of my strength to get him out of my head. I am surprised when I feel the pressure in my mind release and I am brought back to the training room. I realize that I am crying as I try to wipe them away before Kylo can see them. I look towards Kylo and see him just staring at me. I begin to grow angry at him because he is just sitting there looking so stupid.
    "Well are you happy now? You got what you wanted so are we done?!" I choke out in frustration and I stand up trying to burn off the rage that the memory brought up. I turn my back to him and pace back and forth. I don't know what it happening to me but all I can feel is pain and rage. I can't control it and all Kylo does is just sit there and watch me. I get so frustrated as anger starts to cloud my vision. I lash out at Kylo trying to put the blame on someone," You did this! You killed my parents! You made me remember!" I scream throwing myself at the ground and in response the weapons on the rack go flying in different directions. I just lay there weeping confused and scared trying not to remember. "Why? Why is all I ask? You could have stopped." I continue to cry when I feel strong arms rap around me. I nudge my head into Kylo's robe trying to lose myself in his sent but he pulls away and lifts up my chin. He smiles at me with sad eyes and wipes the tears that betrayed me as they slip down my blotchy face.
    "I am sorry. If I would have known this would have hurt you this much I wouldn't have done it." He then pulls me in again as I savor his embrace. For once in my life since learning that I contain the Force and being held captive by the First Order. I feel like a normal girl just trying to get through her messed up world with a boy who's life is equally crazy.

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