The Force Between Us // Kylo Ren

Chapter XXXIX

           KYLO

I WATCH AS Roe storms out of my room and I can't help but feel empty. I knew that what I was going to say would mean that I am changing sides and I knew it would hurt Roe. But since I woke up Roe hasn't been the same. I can sense that her heart is full of darkness. But I feel a tiny part of it still filled with light.
      When I heard and saw all the merciless things she committed I couldn't help but think she is so similar to Kylo Ren. I should be happy that she chose the dark side. But now that I see the heinous crimes he once committed through an innocent girl. I can't help but feel something isn't right.
      On the ride back from the battle I had realized that I was only happy when she was happy. But she can never be happy again because the darkness has snuffed out her light.
    In the beginning everything was perfect. I was full of darkness she was full of light. We were balanced and at peace. But now that both of us contain darkness and we are falling apart. I care for this girl to much to let her be her own down fall. So now it is time for me to be the one full of light. Now it is time for me to embrace what I was born into. Now it it time to take Kylo Ren and replace him with Ben Solo.
  I pick up my helmet and set it on my bed. I then stride out of the room knowing what I have to do.

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I wait until everything is quiet and mostly everyone is asleep. When I stride down the hallways I feel exposed. I don't wear his helmet anymore because I am not him anymore. When I pass the occasional storm troopers they stop and stare wondering who I am. Or whether i don't belong here and they should stop me. But the determine look on my face makes them keep walking.
       I round the corner and enter a hallway that I always go down even if it would be quicker through another passage way. I stop at a door and I use the Force. I sense a body in the room and I know they are sleeping. The aura around the body is troubling and I know they are having a bad dream. I quickly open the door and stare at the sleeping form. They toss back and forth and I am tempted to lay in the bed next to this beautiful creature and try to ease her pain. But I can't let myself get distracted.
      I hover over the golden hair girl I once loved. Where I used to see peace and hope I now see hatred and anger. I want so badly to help stop this internal pain Roe is feeling because I know how it feels to be torn apart. But I remind myself that what I am doing will help both of us in the long run.
      I kneel so my head is at the same level as her. I then hover my hand over her head and begin searching her memories. I try to do this as painless and swift as possible.
      I scan through the memories of her old life before the Force and the First Order. I see so much joy and laughter and I begin to grow sad knowing I made her change in the worst way possible. My eyes glaze over as I see a memory of her sharing a drink with her friends as their laughter fills the room. She could have live a good happy life if I hadn't  interfered. But I know I am close to what I need to find so I push on.
      Suddenly Roe moves she rolls over and her face looks in my direction. I panic thinking she has saw me. But then I look at her eyes and notice they are closed. I let a sigh of relief escape my mouth. I begin my search again.
     I finally find what I am looking for as I get up quickly. I lean over her as I watch her sleeping form. I then lean down and lightly kiss her fore head and whisper,
  "Don't worry my little shooting star. I promise I will make things right. I will not let the darkness consume the only thing I care about."
    I then turn and briskly walk out the door and start to make my way to the hanger.
    Nobody questions my authority as I order for a TIE fighter to be prepared for take off. Even though my face is revealed the trooper seem to know who I am.
    When they have one ready I walk up to it and just as I am about to get in  I hear a voice.
    "And where do you think you are going?"
   I let out a groan as I try to put on my most menacing face. It is hard to contort my face to look intimating because it doesn't feel natural anymore.
     "Oh General Hux. I didn't see you there."
     "I will ask again where are you going?"
   I take a deep breath in. "You have no authority to be demanding answers from your superior! If you must know I am on a secret mission that Snoke has assigned. Now if you want to talk about about it you will have to ask Snoke."
    Hux gives me an unconvinced look as he crosses his arms. "Now if you excuse me I will be leaving." I repeat.
    "Oh your not going anywhere, Kylo Ren."
      I begin to grow annoyed and I clamp my teeth together as I say, "I will not take orders from a low life like you. Remember I can kill you at any point in time. I fact I could choke the life out of your right now."
   I see worry flick across his eyes but then his face goes back to emotionless. I am scared for a second that I will have to Force choke him to get my point across. But I don't want to because Force chokes are tricks dark Jedi's use and I have changed my ways. Thankful Hux says,
"Fine. I will let you go and if I find out you were lying I will personal tell Snoke myself." He turn on his heal and marches away. I begin to think I am going to miss all our arguments. But I quickly dismiss the thought as I hop into the TIE fighter.
     I launch myself out of the hanger as fast as I can and once I know I am at a far enough distance where the star destroyer can't detect me. I punch in some coordinates. I close my eyes and play back the memory I was searching for in Roe's mind.
     The memory shows her and the other new Resistance members all sitting down. There is a man in the front of the room pointing at a map. He says,
  "Now if anything happened to you out in battle and you get separated from the group. Our base is located here." He slaps a Pointer  over  a planet he then says some coordinates and those are the ones I type into my fighter. The man then speaks again. "Once you reach this planet you will find a village called Talkka. There you will go to the nearest cantina and order a drink from the bar. Now listen close for these next words I say could save you life. When you order this drink make sure you say and add some hope into that drink. From there the Resistance will be notified and they will bring you back to base."
   I open my eyes as I pull the light speed leaver. The stars around me blur as I prepare myself to meet the one person who will help me be Ben Solo again. General Leia... my mother.

I can't wait!!! Kylo or should I say Ben finally joining the light side!!
The excitement continues

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