The Force Between Us // Kylo Ren

Chapter XXXIV

  

"ROE, I can feel the light with in you. You are still holding on. If you are to embrace the dark side you have to give up hope. Just as Kylo killed the one thing connecting him to the light, you have to do the same." I faintly hear Supreme Leader  Snoke's raspy voice as I struggle under the Force he is radiating off.
    The past weeks Snoke as begun training me. He took me back to the basics of the Force just as Kylo had. However Snoke has been using the Force longer then Kylo so he is stronger. This means Snoke is harder and believe me when I say I am totally wiped out after our training.
    Today he is trying to get me to block him from entering my head. He probes my mind easily as I try to block him out. The feeling of him inside my brain sends shooting pain through my temple. The pain feels like knives stabbing and cutting and it is agony.
    "Supreme Leader, I am trying to let go. I am trying my best. I have pledged myself to the dark side what more is there to do?" I stifle a scream of pain as he digs deeper and I desperately try to stop him.
     "Do you want Kylo to die?!" Snoke yells at me. "If you don't you must try harder. I can see your anger inside of you yet you try to hold it back. You must let go!"
   Kylo hasn't gotten any better since the day I had the dream where he died. I come visit him before and after training. Hoping that today will be the day I would see his smiling face. But each day I am met with the same disappointment.
     I am mad at myself for with holding my anger. I am mad that there may still be a part of me that wants to be full of light. I am mad that I can't grasp the dark side. And most importantly I am mad that I can't save Kylo. I was so sure  that if I joined the dark side Kylo would get better but now I am not even sure I can join the dark side. I am so confused, frustrated, and enraged with myself but I hold it back to scared to show it.
      "Why do you hold back? Why can I still sense light within you?" Snoke asks but I know I don't have to answer because he will just retrieve it through my mind. And to be honest I don't even know why I still contain hope. Every thing around me has fallen apart so why is there still hope?
    I am kneeling on the ground in the dark training room as I feel him find his way into a part of my brain that hasn't been touched in a long time. And the last person to bring up a memory from that region was Kylo. A searing pain courses through me as he finds the answer he was looking for.
   "Ah I see now why you hold on." The memory of my village being burned and the Resistance comping to save me flashes across my mind. Tears start to roll down my cheeks. "You believe that the Resistance is good and they will still rescue you. You are still loyal to them. You believe they still care for you. That you are worth something to them."
    I take in a raspy breath shocked by how much I still care for the Resistance. But some how this doesn't shock me as much as it should because deep down I still hold the Resistance dearly to my heart. That is why I had let Poe go when he had escaped. They saved me when I was left to die.
     "Oh my poor Roe. The Resistance has corrupted you. They filled your mind with false hope and with lies."
     "What do you mean?"
     "Did they tell you that storm troopers killed your family? That the First Order attacked your innocent village?" My curiosity stops me from asking any more questions as I wait impatiently to hear what he has to say.
    "Roe do you want to know what really happened to your family?" I nod my head as he beckons me forward. His hologram shrinks into human size as he walk up to me. He places a hand on my forehead and I am suddenly shot into a memory.
I stare up into my mothers loving eyes as she sings a soft lullaby. She walks down a dusty street and I remember it as the street I used to live on. I faintly remember sand dunes surrounding the city from the times I had recalled this memory before but now there are gray buildings and run ways.
My mother walks me into a modern looking house but I could have sworn I lived in a sandy shack. She sets me down in a crib as I look around. The house is plain everything is gray and black. There are three rooms. A sitting room a kitchen and what I suspect is a bed room. As I scan the room something ketches my eye. A red and black banner stands out against the wall as I recognize it as the First Orders symbol. I am confused by this flag because I had never recalled my parents on the First Order's side.
I hear a door click open as I see an officer walk in. He looks exhausted as he sets down his brief case and takes his hat off. I instantly recognize him as my father. My mother races over to him and they embrace.
"How was work." My mother ask sweetly. Father walks over to me and picks me up. He begins to rock me as he wiggles his fingers at me.
"Oh you know they same thing. I do what ever the First Order needs me to do."
"We are so fortunate to have a safe home in this protected base to raise our child." Both of my parents look at me as we all hold each other. Every thing is perfect.
I begin to hear faint sounds of explosions. My parents rush out side to see what is happening. I look up and I see X-wing fighters. I am confused but my dad starts to yell,
"Dela run and take Roe! The Resistance fighters are here!"
"No I won't leave you Paul!"
"Please if anything were to happen to either of you I wouldn't be able to live with my self." And explosion goes off at the house next to us and debris flys every where. My mother hunches over me to protect me. She stands up quickly as I hear my father grunting. I look towards him as I see him fighting off members from the Resistance. I hear a loud ring of  a blaster as I watch my father fall to the ground dead. My mother runs inside but the enemy is close on her heals. They shoot her leg and she stumbles dropping me. I begin to cry but my mother grabs me again and drags herself across the floor. She stashed me in a closet as she smiles down at me. She then says "you are my my little moon's shadow and don't you ever forget that."  I then watch as her eyes roll to the back of her head as a Resistance fighter stands over her with a blaster pointed at her head. The enemy sees me and picks me up bringing me back to their base.
   When Snoke lets go of my head my eyes burn with hatred towards the Resistance as I finally let go all of my emotions flood out of me as the darkness settles into my heart filling up any space where the light used to be.

Okay do you like how Snoke manipulated Roes memories into thinking the Resistance killed her parents not the First Order. Now the real fun begins!
 
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