Mr.Jones | A Captain Swan AU

14. Secrets

"I want to trust you," Emma said.

She had stood up from the couch now, and was standing several feet away from David. She couldn't trust him. She had been let down so much in her life that it was too hard to trust him.

"I will explain Emma. Just sit down with me, and calm down," David replied. Emma couldn't believe him. He expected her to be okay with him disappearing for a week?

"No, I am not going to calm down. You want to know why? Because for a whole week I thought you were dead or something! It is possible that I could only have one parent left here soon and-" Emma ranted but then got cut off my David.

"Don't say that! Don't you speak like that about her! She is not going to die, and you talking like that is definitely not helping the situation Emma!" He argued.

"I'm just speaking the truth. There is a possibility that she won't make it through this, and you decided to be selfish and disappear for a week! How do you think I felt, David? I love Mary Margaret too! She has been there for me for the past four years when nobody else was, and you just decided to go do God knows what? Did you not think that maybe I needed comfort in this situation? Obviously everyone grieves differently​, but could you of been more selfish? You were only thinking about yourself, and that is not okay. Mary Margaret isn't your only family anymore, I am too now. So when you need comfort in these kind of situations you come to me, and you lean on me. Not whatever you were doing for the past week, okay!?" Emma replied.

"I'm sorry Emma. I just couldn't handle everything that happened, okay? She was her normal sweet self one moment, and then the next she was back in the OR. I thought she was going to be okay, and then all of that had to happen. So I left. I left, and I was going to take my anger out on something I knew I would regret. I just couldn't help thinking that she might wake up, and she wouldn't want to see me that way again. She helped me change for the better so much, and I-I just," David said as a tear fell from his eye. He couldn't hold it in anymore, and he fell to his knees as tears streamed down his face.

Emma kneeled down in front of David, and wrapped her arms around him to comfort him. She knew this was good. He was being vulnerable, and he wasn't holding back the pain. She knew from experience that is was better to just let it all out.

"Shhh," Emma whispered, "it's okay, you can tell me." David slowly was able to get himself together, and wiped away his tears.

"When I was younger, my father was abusive. He was an abusive alcoholic, and to ease the pain . . . I then turned to alcoholic like him. I became an alcoholic like him. I would get so drunk that I would wake up in a random woman's bed every morning. Then Mary Margaret saved me. She helped me get over the addiction of alcohol, and as she did so . . . I fell in love with her. Ever since then I have been clean, and she has helped me fight the addiction. Then I saw her flat line, and come back to life. Then she slipped into a coma . . . I was so angry. I was so angry at the world that all I could think of was alcohol, because I knew I wouldn't remember it in the morning and I didn't want to remember. I didn't want it to be real. Then as I was buying the biggest bottle of vodka I could find, I saw the picture that I have of Mary Margaret and I in high school. I forgot that I kept it in my wallet, and it reminded me. It reminded me of all she did, and how I could not let her down. Wether she is going to survive this coma or not, I can not let her down. She saved me, and I love her. The only thing that is worst than losing her to death, is losing her support and her trust. So I came back, and I visited her in the hospital. Then I just decided to walk around for a bit, and Killian found me. He told me to come back here, because you felt like someone had abandoned you again. Which is exactly what I did. I am so so sorry Emma, and I really hope you can forgive me," David explained.