Me, Myself and I

Meh Mood

Hey.

I have a headache.

I'm feeling down.

Sad.

Depressed?

There's no particular reason.

Life is just...

Irritating

Stupid.

Help.

I'm not happy.

There's no need to be happy.

Life isn't joyous.

It just carries on

With or without you.

With or without me.

I feel like I don't matter,

Don't tell me that it's not true,

I know that.

I just need to believe that.

I search for a cause of my mood.

My crush? School? Parents?

Could be any one of those.

Or something completely different.

I'm not sure what I'm feeling.

It's something like

Tiredness

Sadness

No courage

I feel as if I'm not in my body.

I view life differently.

From above.

Watching myself go through routines.

Mindlessly.

I feel like that.

Mindless.

I feel empty.

I make jokes.

I laugh at jokes.

I don't mean it.

Empty laughter.

Fake happiness.

I sit quietly,

At school.

Glancing over at the girl of my dreams,

Wondering if she feels the same way,

As I feel of her.