Spoken Words (poetry)

"friendship really ends"

(I wrote it for my Bestfriend)
By:NikeeEyaa_07
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It started in our childhood
When you became my friend
You're the reason of my good mood
Hope our friendship won't end.
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We used to talk everyday
Like there's no tomorrow
We laugh and tease night and day
Somehow you lessen all my sorrow
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Though there was a time we separate ways
We became far from each other
But still we have our own ways
For us to laugh again together
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It's not the same as before
We already grown up
Felt like I want to know about you more
Coz this ain't our old set up
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As we are getting older
We are unconsciously making mistake
But still we help each other to be stronger
And support the right decisions we make
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It's hard for me to see you cry
Coz of your past relationship that is full of shit
But I like the fact that you can't lie
And tells me everything when we meet
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No secrets, no lies
That's how close we are
But why day by day our friendship dies
Seems like I am looking where you are
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While here I am staring at the moon.
You're far from me but you were still there
You still give me the advice that I need
You still want us to be together
And heal the pain when my heart bleeds
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I thought I can live like this forever
I can lean on you when I'm in need
Coz for me you're a friend and a sister
I thought you can stay there and lead
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Until one day, my nightmare came
I never thought you would say that word
I have no one, but myself to blame
Felt like my heart was hit by a sword
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It's all because of me
Coz I am so numb and selfish
Being happy is all you wanted me to be
But now you're tired of me being childish
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Maybe I forgot that you are my BESTFRIEND
Not just a comfort zone or a clown
But I never wanted this to end
You're the only one I have when I'm down
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I can't stop blaming myself everyday
You left me because of my stupidity
Please hear the words I say
All we need is forgiveness and clarity
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It feels like our story will end this way
I'll miss how we say "Family stays together"
Maybe destiny leads us this way
Seems like true friendship really ends...
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