transgender → klance

eighteen

It been fucking two weeks.

TWO WEEKS!

After my own mother die in front of my eyes. In front of my eyes. MY EYES!
THAT WOMAN GAVE ME SHELTER, FOOD, WATER, CLOTHES, MONEY, LOVE, AND HAPPINESS! SHE DIED! SHE DIED IN FRON OF ME!
  The past two weeks, doctors been checking on me, police officers asked me questions, planners came to me to plan my mother's funeral, and all of that.. Lance been there on my side.. holding my hand.
  My mom, Kathy Gyeong Kogane, got shot in the chest. She got shot very close to the heart, but she has a rare condition that there is a extra muscle over her heart. That muscle was weak since she and her immune system couldn't fully heal things like before. It was only healing when I was in the coma, but when Mom saw me.. she got too excited and her heart began to beat too quickly meaning breaking the muscle that was healing.
It's my fault. My fault she died.
Lance been very busy of me and work. It's hard because I can't go to work in this state. My boss is already mad at me because not going to work for a while. He knows what I been through, but he doesn't give a fuck. When Lance went to work, I had to stay with Shiro, Hunk, or Pide's place or one or all of them came over. I can't be trusted to be alone for a long time.

"Keith!"

"Ah!— Sorry.. just in the zone.." I look back up to the police officer.

"It's okay, you been through too much." The kind police officer smiled at me.

"What's the question, again?"

"Your father. Do you know why he did that to your mom & you?"

"He is not my father!" Anger rages into my veins and into my eyes.

"I'm sorry."

"Never ever call that horrible man 'my father'! I never had one from the start! He left my mother and I 14 years ago!" I stood up and having an urge to hit the police officer.

"I'm sorry, Keith. Please calm down."

"I don't want to talk to him or about him anymore. I will leave now." I tried to leave the police officer's office.

"No, please! I have more questions!"

"And those will never be answered." I turned around to tried to walk over to the door.

"Please! If you answered, he will go to prison!"

Keller Kogane. Keller Kogane.. will go to prison.

"...Fine. Ask me more." I sat back down.

I answered every single question. All I thought is my mom and Shiro waiting outside in the hall.

"Keith!" I walked out and I feel a hug.

"You don't have to hug me every time. I'm not going to get murdered.. I'm just answering questions." I fake a chuckle to brighten the moment.

"We're cousins, I love you too death. Now, let's go get boba." Shiro smiled.

"I love you too.." I look around to see the police station. A couple of adults looking at me. Judging me.

They are judging you. They are making fun of you. Making fun that you killed your mother. Thinking worse of you, Kate.

  After a while, I feel the worse pain in my chest. Tightness. I feel extremely uncomfortable. I want to leave.
  I ran out of the police station and to the car. Shiro quickly ran over and asked what happened. I lied and fake a smile. Shiro drove me to my favorite boba place that is 30 minutes. Shiro and I didn't talk much during the trip. I plugged in my earphones into my phone and looked out in the window while listening to Panic! At the Disco.