transgender → klance

sixty-three

 

  "Keith! Lance! Check out Bean's room!" Amulet yelled while she was on her bed.

"Okay, sure!" I was cleaning up a bit in their bedroom since Amulet is about to pop in three days! Amulet is going to get c-section because the doctors said her body is too small to push out a child.

  "You need anything?" Lance walked over to Amu and pat her head.

  "I need you to stop treating me like a little kid and go see Bean's room."
Amulet chuckled and sat up.

  "Okay, okay!" Lance laughed and walked out of the room. I sighed and turned around to face Amulet. Lately.. I-I been very nervous and... scared? Amulet decided to have c-section because she have a small hips and is not strong enough to push out Bean. Sometimes, I have small and random panic attacks about this topic. I know, there's no reason to be scared, but....
I am scared for Amulet and Bean..

What if Bean dies while c-section?
What if Amulet dies while c-section?
What if Amulet is too weak to heal after the surgery?
What if Bean have a health problem?
What if Amulet decided to give Bean up to adoption?

UGH! I SHOULDN'T BE NERVOUS!

  "Keith Kogane-McClain! Why are you still here? Go to Bean's room and look around! Go!" Amulet slapped my face and snapped me out of my zone. Bitch! Let your fucking cousin think.

  "Huh? Bitch! Okay, okay! I'm going, I'm going." I rubbed my cheek from the pain and groaned.

  "What's wrong with you lately? You're always daydreaming about some dumb bullshit." Amulet rolled her eyes and crossed her arms.

  "Can you shut up for once? I know that you are having mood swings, but you don't need to command every single person. Also, I been THINKING about Bean." I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms.
 
  "Ugh, just go. I need to get ready my hospital bag." Amulet got quiet, crossed her arms, and turned around. If her saltiness gets handed down to Bean, we will die.

  I walked down the hall to Bean's room. Before I walked inside, I see Lance sitting in the rocking chair in the corner... crying.

  "B-Babe... You okay?" I walked inside and walked toward him.

  "AH! BABE!-- I-I'm fine." Lance quickly look up to me and wiped his tears like nothing.

  " You know 'I'm fine' is always a lie! Tell me the truth, babe. Why have you been so secretly around me?" I sat down on the floor next to him and laid my head on his knee.

  "I-I.. been secretly around you because I been so jealous & frustrated about Amulet and Finn. I didn't want to crack and break out because I get angry, you know me." Lance smiled at me and started to play with my hair. I love when he does that to me.

  "I been so jealous & frustrated about Amulet and Finn because.. I want kids." I didn't face him, but by her voice.. he's crying.

   "I know that we are only in our early 20's, but the idea of me having children makes me so happy. Mostly, me having children with you." I looked up to Lance and I felt chills down my spine.
 
  "I-I.." I spoke and stood up. I felt like shit. I made him feel like this. I knew that he wanted kids, but I didn't do anything! We researched about how to have kids. We did everything, but I always ignore it or push it aside! God! What is wrong with me!

  "Don't tell me that you're sorry. I wanted kids and you're not ready. I get it. I will get over it." Lance sighed.
 
  "I never said that I'm not ready. I am just scared because I don't know how to have kids! I am transgender male! I already know that there's a machine to grow our childern, but will it work? I guess, I'm anxious around this topic." I sighed and sat onto Lance's lap. Lance wrapped around his arms around me.

  "Don't worry, I'm here. I love you with all of my heart." Lance chuckled and kissed my cheek.
 
  "I'm just anxious for no reason. We should have kids later in life because we are so young!" I smiled and snuggled with him.

  "Yeah! Anyways, we need to be more support Amulet, Finn, and Bean. That's the main thing at the moment." Lance rested his head on my head.

  "Yeah." I smiled and started to snuggle my head into his neck. We stayed there snuggling for a while.

  "Hey gays! Text Finn when he's coming home. I am going to take a nap. Don't fuck up my house!" All of sudden, Lance and I heard a yell from Amulet from her bedroom. God, her mood swings are shit and scary.

  "I'm still not surprised that you and Amu are related." Lance laughed and kissed me.
 
  "SAME." I smiled.
 
  "I'm going to me, so text Finn and be right back." Lance smiled and I stood up.

  "Okie!" I smiled and turned on my phone while Lance walked out of the room.

                           4:30 PM
                Monday, August 20

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[Takashi Shirogane 🖤]: hey...]

  Fuck! Why did Mr. Shirogane text me?

[Takashi Shirogane 🖤]: hey keith.. I know that you are going to hate me if I asked you this..

[You]: what do you want??

I rolled my eyes and ignored it. I texted Finn and went to the kitchen. I made some lunch for Finn, Lance, Amu, and I. Lance was practicing a singing part for an episode out loud while I cooked. HIS. VOICE. IS. AMAZING. GOD.

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QOTD: any ideas for Bean's name

AOTD: I have a name in mind 🤐