transgender → klance

twenty-five

Sex.

  I'm a male. MALE. But I have female parts. I can't afford the surgery. I'm a fucking college student, of course I'm broke. I dont know.. I want to have sex, but I am uncomfortable with my self image.

Fatass.
Nothing.
No one.
Worthless.
Pig.

  I don't know anymore. I do want kids in the future. I really do. I don't want to give birth, but I want my kids to be blood-related to Lance & I. I don't want to be pregnant. I just want my kids to be blood-related. I wonder what our kids look like and be like.
  Who's eyes do they have? Mine or Lance's?
  Hair color & texture? Mine or Lance's?

Why would you wonder now? You will never know when Lance & you break up. Lance will break your small stupid heart & leave you like your father did to you & your mother.

Why can't you just make fun of me now, so you don't have any original names for the future.

Okay, let's go.
Katherine Kogane. Katherine, you're worthless. Only your mother stayed with you because she felt bad. Your father left because look at you! You are faggot.
"Keith Kogane", who?
All I see is Katherine Kogane being a fucking stupid bitch.
  You know, if you really have kids with Lance, they will look like your father. He looks so similar as you. The hair & eye color. You two share them.
  Your harm scars? You try to to be edgy, but look at you. You are weak and  fat. All of reasons why you cry are so dramatic & stupid. Crying because your mother dying? Really? Real men should be strong, unlike you.
  You always eat & drink boba. You are as fat as Hunk. Wow. Just, wow. Why couldn't you be as skinny as Lance? Why can't you be as strong as Shiro? Why can't you be as good cook as Hunk? Why can't you be as smart as Pidge? Why can't you be as independent as Kathy? Why can't you be as funny as Kelvin? Why can't you be so cheerful as Amu? Why can't you be so kind as Tiffany?
  Why can't you don't be yourself? You know you're stupid, ugly, weak, and worthless, so why not be someone that isn't you. You know it.
  You know that Lance will break your little stupid heart and leave you, like your dad did. You know you won't live so long. You know you're weak. You know you aren't amazing as your friends mad family. Everyone have to help out of pity. In your coma, everyone only visit your mom. Not you.
  You know you caused so many problems?
  - Over $10k for your medicine while you're in a com
  - Over $12k for your university
    So much money wasted on you. You know it. Lance even had to ask for his family help out. Your friends had to help out. You didn't do anything so special for them and they did that. Wow. Just wow.
  Kate Kogane. NOT Keith Kogane.