transgender → klance

five

A mind.

A normal  mind will actually be on your side. Helping you along your way into life.

Well, my mind is a fucking asshole. My anxiety builds up so strong that it has it own voice. There's two control in my voice in my mind. One that is on my side and the other that is an asshole.

  Lance doesn't love you.
Your father left because of you.
You are worthless.
You are a disgrace.
Your "friends" hate you.
Why do you have thoughts of being a boy? You are a disappointment to society.
You will be never be loved.
You will die alone.
You can't do anything.
You make everything worse.
You made your family worse.
Your mom hates you.
Why can't you be normal like the others?
You can't do it.
End it.
End your worthless life now.
You are insane.
Why would anyone hang out with you.
You're Kate. Not "Keith".
Why do you want to change? You will make everything worse if you change.
Why would anyone be with you?
You are ugly.
You are fat.
You are stupid.
You are useless.

That's just a few of the thoughts I have.

Why do you feel like this?
Are you trans?
Are you genderfluid?
Are you nonbinary?
Are you gay?
Are you straight?
Are you pansexual?
Are you polysexual?
Are you bisexual?
Are you asexual?
What are you?

I just don't know. My mind is forcing me to find out in matter of seconds. I really hate my mind. What happened to my life? My life was great! I had a pretty good childhood! Yes, my mom and I are poor, but we tried our best and wasn't very spoiled. My mother. She's the nicest & most independent woman in the world. She worked her ass off for years! She only focus that I am safe, well-fed, warm and having fun. I never realized it until high school. I never ask for much. I don't really ask for help.
I grew up with my mother and a few of my cousins and one uncle. My cousins. I have only two that I know of. Taksahi & Amu. Yeah, Takashi aka Shiro is my cousin. Amu is a 13 years old. Taksahi is 20 years old. He's a third year. I'm a first year with Lance & Pidge. Hunk is second year.

Me.
I, Keith Kogane, is in the closet.

Keith.
Keith.
K E I T H.

I got it. After hours and hours of thinking..
I am a transgender boy & gay. I am a boy and I like other boys, for the ones that are confused.

I got it.

I got it..

I GOT IT! FINALLY!

Will Lance still love me?

Ah! Yes, of course! He's my boyfriend and plus he's bisexual.

Is he really?

Fuck off.

Will never. I am your mind, remember Kate?

Keith Kogane. NOT Kate Kogane.