transgender → klance

sixty-five

   Am I good enough? Am I? AM I? God, that question been stuck in my mind since I started to experience getting bullied. I started to experience bullying since I was 6 years old. I was bullied because I couldn't speak proper English.  The only good friends I had were Takashi & Kathy. I cried my eyes out when Takashi left elementary school when I was in 5th grade. Ahh, I missed the old days.. Now, I have to do grown-up shit like taxes.

  Back to the main point, am I good enough? The only good things about myself are... nothing. I can't do anything  well. I messed things up. I can't really keep up my papers at work. I can't really do much to help. So, no. The only bad things about myself are how I can't be happy, how I will mess up something, how I cry to everyone, and.. how my mental health is a bitch.

  You probably don't understand why would I ask a question such so deep. I personally believe that I should not deserve this. I have a husband who is LANCE FUCKING KOGANE-MCCLAIN. I have a lovely family. I have friends who are very dependable. I have a newborn nephew that gives me chills down my spine. Since Finn and Amulet are young parents who are trying their hardest to find money, I am probably going to be the one to take care of Comet when the young couple is busy. I am extremely grateful of all of this, but I believe I shouldn't have this all. Especially, Lance. He been through everything with me like I was in a coma, I was kidnapped and raped, and I am suicidal.

  Wait, I shouldn't even have childern! I am sick in the head! Am I going to spread it to my kids? My anxiety, depressions, and my suicidal thoughts will be handed down to my future children. I do not want that to happen to them. I will hate myself to see my own children suffering the same as I did. I want them to be happy and safe. They don't need all the bullshit in their minds like I do.. Oh fuck! Fuck! Fuck! I just fucking remember that Lance suffers from depression. I am an idiot! My own husband has depression. Turns out by my therapist, Lance suffer more from depression and I suffer more from anxiety.

  I-I'm out, I am too anxious about this information.

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One, go check out my new story:
klance oneshots

Two, I been extremely unmotivated and uninspirsed because I am having extremely bad time with my depression.

I am sorry with the lack of chapters.

By the way, all the depression, anxiety, and suicidal bullshit is from my head. No, I never got raped, but I have cutted and I attempted suicide.

Also, I am extremely sorry for those who were raped, sexual harassed, etc. I do not know how to write properly about this serious topics. I tried my best.

ALSO THANK YOU FOR 7K READS

Thank you. :)