petal poetry

i needed you

08:50 02/08/2017

it's said that people do crazy things
but when the time comes, they'll be there
so what am i supposed to think
when you didn't care to help

i cried and trembled for hours
just thinking of your face
everything i said felt like a burden
that you didn't care to erase

i can't blame you for what i'm feeling
but what's the point of a best friend
when my lungs had trouble with breathing
and you just watched and then left them

maybe you've never felt so bad
thought i was overreacting
this is why you'll never understand
this happiness that i'm acting

i'd rather keep you out of my head
every step is a trap
i would never wish for you to end up there
especially without a map

but you know my problems, you know most
i'm afraid i've shared too much
you know i'm scared of following the road
unsure of where i'll end up

if you ever end up reading this take it lightly
i don't mean to make a fuss
you know my brain is fucked, just slightly
and i'm hopeless for anything love

09:01 02/08/2017