petal poetry

if anything

19:36 21/12/2018

the sorrow
of a broken heart
was never alien
to my mind

the song
had been hummed
by every bird
i could find

i saw the hammer
and was aware
of the impact
it would cause

but while the birds
still stare
i hiccup
my feelings

i'm sorry
i am both
too little
and too much

i'm sorry
that i fall
and can't seem to
keep up

i'm sorry
that i leave
though still near
in distance

uncontrollable
actions
of my pained
resistance

of the demons
as they rise
and latch onto
my legs

pull my bones apart
like ribs
lick their lips
ready to taste

everyone awaits
the star
but in the shadows
is a beast

who keeps choking
on their tears
and can never reach
the feast

that darkness
hides
within
the void

too afraid
of the people
they'd rather
avoid

and when they call
for the star
they pretend
to be far

since it's just a facade
for the things
that never had
a name

so all you can do
if you please
is hold me
to stop my tears

but if that's not
in your plans
i guess i'll hold my own hand

and if i must be here
i guess i'll soak my money notes

since i am my own best friend
and myself is all i know
but still
not understand
unfortunately

i wish i could stop crying
and i wish
time
would hurry
up
and get here
quicker
for i just want to skip
please

19:43 21/12/2018