petal poetry

enticing

21:59 28/02/2019

so enticing
i'm struck
my knees
buckle up
i wasn't ready
for this bumpy
ride

poor me
i'm so weak
your cheek
against my cheek
jesus
help me
i don't think
i'm alright

is it easy
being me
making up problems
in a fantasy
cause this isn't real
this isn't how you feel
and this isn't
really me

but what if i lie
to make myself smile
and these thoughts
are true to life
i don't want to stay
i don't think i'm invited
but man, fuck
you're just so exciting

enchanted
like a dream
your skin too hot
while my fingers freeze
and i'm sorry
for being heavy
my body is too
unsteady

i tip and i turn
but i still can't learn
despite the eyes
watching me
i am so reckless
and careless
i should probably go
but i couldn't care less

my
you need to go rest your feet
must be so tired walking
in my mind endlessly

just leave
i beg you please leave
i don't need you like this so
just stay away from me
my sick reputation
doesn't need heart palpitations
i'm fine without
your sweet, calming eyes

fuck off
please
get your hands
out of my pockets
stop touching my things
i can't stay
i'd love to
but.

22:05 28/02/2019