petal poetry

hiding in the bathroom

23:58 17/08/2017

not sure why i'm here
i'm surprised you even invited me
already looking for a place to hide
all this interaction is scary

drinks in their hands
cigarette breath
forgot what happened
still anxious of what's coming next

this music i don't like
people screaming everywhere
i don't feel good
probably because this is all popular

i'd rather sit with the food
proclaim it my new friend
i don't care about what you do
just don't let my friendship end

you can go home with whoever you like
i'm not gonna stop you
don't worry i'll be just fine
as long as i've got my food

i hate the way everyone acts
high on happiness
when tomorrow while throwing up
they won't even remember this

all these parties seem pointless without you
holding my hand as we danced
but you wouldn't come anyway
that last dance was our last chance

the food is gone i'm out of here
the sound is too much for my head
i don't care that it's just getting started
i never wanted to be here in the first place

no i won't stay any longer
no matter how long you beg
i'm tired of hiding in bathrooms
i'd rather sleep in my own bed

00:05 18/08/2017