petal poetry

misplaced thoughts

22:00 28/11/2018

perhaps i need to die
to be able to live again
the quivering lip of yours
should stay still for once
so that i don't need to regret leaving you

my heart breaks with each misfortune
and i try to be your drug
prevent the imperfect
but how dare i forget
it's your life to be living

the clouds hit against each other
they're stuck in a box
similar to yours
but they long to get out

you?
i'm not so sure

and everything is red
and terrifying
terrible and constantly lying
and how dare i be afraid
of the pressure i put on my brain

stop assuming
stop running around and consuming
watch where you treat for there's probably a flower somewhere
and you just killed it
for it was too sensitive

and it's all so simple
easily overlooked
carelessly misunderstood
for the careful live the way society told them they should

and those who see differently
are caught amongst the nets
of unfortunate circumstances they can't seem to prevent

please distract me
rewire my brain
after all these years of consulting
why do i feel the same

and the conversations are long forgotten
some sad words at 3am
and despite my efforts
i can't seem to remember them

so i must reconnect to something that's alive
that won't keep me stranded in a lonesome crowd
my words feel so dry in my mouth
but i'm just so insatiable now

my trying is effortless
for it's easy to see
that the commotion has now completely
taken control over me

22:09 28/11/2018