petal poetry

back of your head

09:36 03/03/2019

i'm staring at the back of your head
while you pretend
to watch the movie

i know you've got your phone in your hand
and i just stand
besides the tv

can your glowing mind stop shining
i need some time
to make sense of this

can your soulless eyes stop dying
i'm trying
stop crying

i wish i could just shake you out of these thoughts
i hoped
they would've been long gone

i know it's irresponsible to love
the unloved
without it being toxic

but my heart wavers towards you
what can i do
since it's chosen

and my lungs don't know what to do
gave my breath away
inhaling poison

i should probably stay home by myself
take care of my health
since nobody else will

don't mean to sound down but this mess
has been too repressed
to not let it out

and seeing the birds flying over the trees
i wish that was me
being so careless

i guess i need to work on my fears
stop counting the years
and find something else

to do

09:43 03/03/2019