petal poetry

stop stop stop

21:04 23/01/2019

i need to take my head
out of your problems
remove myself
from your insults

create some rules perhaps
that will stick
instead of those
which were resistable

look at you
you
are a liar
i think

and my pointless pondering
has become annoying
along with my understanding
that's just so concerning

oh
i should let you be
but what else am i to do

and my hatred and anger are too poised
to say a few words
i would regret
i can thank my mum for that

and you're just too kind
and too blind
to be true
how can she have you
fuck
what did i just do

my undetermined actions
wreck towers ahead
and i scream seeing them break
"they're just jenga,
what the fuck"

i guess
i should stop guessing
and thinking
and writing
and sharing

i think
i should stop saying i think
when i start a sentence

annoying
but part of me
an easy coincidence

but what's my consequence
of not being anyone's first choice
but always being their first
their record breaker
but in what book

where will my name read
i guess
i can't guess anymore

where is the music
that people don't hate
oh, that boy said a few smart words
i hope that you could relate

the internet
allows more connectivity
but less connection

so where are you
at what side of the screen
doing what exactly
since i know you're not with me

21:13 23/01/2019