petal poetry

blurs of my high mind

16:45 14/01/2018

i'm a bit late with explanations
was stuck in my theories
back with more ideas about you

sorry if i was glued to your side
i found comfort in your eyes
and couldn't leave no matter what i'd do

something ominous and inviting
the apple that you're biting
maybe it's not poisoned yet

but watch the clock while you're eating
for if the ticks stop ticking
just know i'll be there to save you

everyone was wrong
here i am
surrounded by all my coffee friends

no need for something
out of their point of view
i'm happier here without you

so don't mind me
and my crazy stories
this was never about you
you're just featured in my mess

i already regret it
don't even know why i said it
but i did

hopefully someday i'll look in your eyes again
really you're not that scary
but that day won't come too soon

my toxic mind messed the words up
now i'm mixing up the next ones
cause i don't want to be crazy and alone

i will draw the image from my heart
and that'll be the start
cause i don't want war, i just want art

and all of the blurs
don't make sense
speaking with a lower level of consciousness

they call me out
invite me downstairs
but i'm on the roof and i'm not leaving yet

sipping on my juice
eating pancakes without you
and i'm happier, so much happier

...

someone's getting beaten up outside my house
a baby is crying again
i might be happier but that's only now
how will today even end?

the sky went dark hid the sun away
i cant see the light
if i'm so happy what about my friends
i'll always find something to worry about

...

i'm drunk on a metaphor and cuteness
the sweeter version of me
the part people would rather see

but in all of these shit words and notes
what people see the most
is an author with way too many stories

16:57 14/01/2018