petal poetry

purposeful mistakes

22:52 22/09/2017

so i know you won't understand what i say
to you it's just a little sth along the way
but it went ahead broke down my whole day
no i'm not strong enough to throw it away

i try so hard to be liked by my family
all these thing leaving tears in my eyes
why do i make these purposeful mistakes
i don't want to be a disappointment, i try

i thought you knew me well
days like these i don't even know myself
so if i'm not who i thought oh hell
what role am i acting today

honestly i question my own opinions
i don't need you to do that too
the only time you care is when i'm not here
i guess i'd better go

this is sad enough as it is
feels like i'm raising my siblings
and my dad falling on the ground
smashing glass as he falls down

i'm not sure what this all means
if these are my feelings or just similarities
i can't explain what i think i think
cough every time i want a drink

stop pressuring me to write even more
takes seconds to read. that's what i want
but oh fuck how do i begin
to explain how i feel

this time i won't apologise
for what i think
i'm pretty sure you know
i didn't like it

so this time i won't write
sorry if you read this
but there will be a next time
and i don't know if i'll still be here

23:08 22/09/2017