(Hey guys! Just wanted to let you know that this chapter will be pretty sad and may trigger a few of you. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED! Btw 🔝 is another edit of mine😬)
Harley's POV:
I've neva felt so weak in my entire life. I feel horrible. I didn't think that after all the fun things I've done it would turn too this. I just want to cry and go away. I wouldn't want to leave my Puddin though. Oh I forgot to explain what's wrong with me huh? Haha. Well... I-I'm dyin. I don't have much time left and it could be anytime that my time is up. B-but i don't want ta go just y-yet. I don't want my Puddin ta suffer. It's all m-my fault. If I never got caught, none of this would've happened. All the ugly things that the prison and Belle Reve put in me is comin back. And it's not pretty. I dunno what to do anymore. I'm so lost.
Jokers POV:
Harley's been acting so weird lately. She isn't as happy, she doesn't laugh as much, and the worst part, she never wants to have sex anymore!! It's getting on my nerves. This isn't like her. I mean, I am getting a lot of work done so I guess that's a good thing but still... there's something going on and I'm going to find out one way or another.
Joker walks in their bedroom and sees Harley on her phone. Harley then sees him in the doorway and puts her phone down. "Hiya Puddin" She says trying to make a believable smile. He doesn't believe it at all. "Hey Harls. What ya been up too hm?" He says crossing his arms. "Uh... just chillin haha. What have you been up to Mistah J?" He shakes his head. "Just getting work done. But that's not why I'm here Harls." Harley gave him a confused face. "Oh. Then uh... why are ya here?He smiles. He new that she was hiding something. "Well I just wanted to come and say hi to my Harley!" He approaches with a smile and open arms. "Come here baby, daddy wants to give you a hug" Now Harley is really confused but she went anyway. She got up, not giving him any sign of weakness and gave him a loving hug. He hugged her back. He felt her body and how fragile it was. He didn't remember her this thin. Harley was trying to keep calm and stay strong. Who knows. This might be the last hug that she gets from him. He pulls away and puts his hand under her chin. He inspects her and he saw it. Her eyes were dull and full of sadness.
She tried to look down but he kept her chin up. "P-Puddin what are ya doin? She giggled. "Harls, there's somethin goin on. I can see it in your eyes. Tell me what's wrong." She shifts her eyes down to the floor. She couldn't tell him. She'd rather be beaten than tell him the truth. "What are ya talkin about Puddin? There's nothin wrong with me!" She said trying to put a smile. She then sees tears in his eyes. She started to feel tears in hers too. "Harley please, tell me what's wrong. I know there is something that you're hiding from me. And it doesn't look healthy." She closes her eyes trying to hold the tears. "Puddin... please don't make me tell ya." She says looking back up at him. He shakes his head. "I need to know Harley. If ya don't tell me, I might lose ya." A tear escapes her left eye. He let's go of her chin and begins to get impatient. "Harley I'm not asking anymore. What's wrong?!! You know how I hate waiting for an answer!" She wipes her tears away. She then sees him run his hands through his hair. She knew he was on his last nerve. "I don't want to tell ya cuz- well be-" she pauses and hugs him as tight as she can. She's held him tighter. "Because what's the point?" He pulls away and puts his hands on her shoulders with a concerned look. "What's the point?! Harley! I can't lose you! You're the only person that I love and trust!! How can you say that?!" She starts crying again as she sees the pain in his eyes. "Baby please. Ya don't wanna know! Trust me... ya don't. Just hold me tight and never let me go. I love ya so much J. So-so much." He pulls her in and kisses her with passion. They kiss like there's no tomorrow. "I-love-ya-J" she says in the middle of their kiss. "Oh baby-I love ya" he says picking her up and holding onto her.
After their long make out he looks at her with pleading eyes. "Tell me what's wrong. Ya felt a little different baby." She looks at him. "I know our kisses were a bit different Puddin. Ya really wanna know why? He nodded his head. "Please baby" She looks down and starts to cry. She can't believe how many times she's cried but she didn't care. "I-I'm d-dyin Puddin. *sniffles* I'm so s-sorry I didn't tell ya" She cried in his chest. It was finally out, he knew. He started to have tears once again. He didn't expect this. "Oh baby. Wh-why didn't ya tell me? How long has this been going on?!" He said concerned. "I-I dunno. I guess I started feeling it a couple of weeks ago. I-I just don't f-feel very well. He looks down at her with fear. "Oh come on baby don't say that. You're going to be okay. I'll make sure of it. She starts to breath heavily. "Pu-puddin... somethins happenin. I-I don't feel so good." She gets out of bed and runs to the restroom. J runs towards her quickly too see what was happening. She was throwing up. She hated this feeling so much. She was crying. J was by her side holding her hair up. He couldn't take it. He had to find a doctor and quick.
Once Harley was done, J helped her out with going back to bed. They both lay with one another not saying a word. Harley broke the silence. "Puddin..." He replies. "Yes baby" She closes her eyes. "How long do ya think I have?" J didn't want to know. He didn't want to even think about losing her. "Baby you're going to be fine. Nothing will happen to ya." Harley smiles. "Haha... you're so sweet puddin. Ya always know what ta say. Please don't leave me." She says holding onto him tightly. "I promise. I will never leave your side baby. I love ya. Daddy will always be here." He caresses her hair. He knew she liked it. She felt so much better when he did that. She fell asleep... or so J thought.
Harley's POV:
I feel comfort with my Puddins hands as he caresses my hair. I loved when he did that ta me. I felt so safe. So protected. Once I closed my eyes and fell asleep I saw a light. It was so bright I couldn't even keep my eyes open! I began ta think of all the fun times J and I had. The love we shared was mad but we loved it. I then open my eyes and see J. He was wearing a white suit and had a big smile on his face. I ran towards him but when I did, he was gone. I panicked. What just happened? I was now in complete darkness. I didn't know where I was all I knew was that I missed my Puddin. I tried ta wake up but I couldn't. I was stuck and no one could here me. Nobody.
Jokers POV:
Once I saw Harley just laying there I began to realize that she wasn't breathing. She was frozen still. I didn't know if she was joking or if it was real. I began to shake her enough to where she could wake up. But she didn't. I got up and checked her pulse. Nothing. I started to freak out. Harley! Harley please wake up! Please! Ya can't leave me not now! I try to do CPR, like that'll work, but I still did it. I called Frost cause he was a professional at somehow everything. He was like my own personal doctor. Haha doctor. Those were the days. Frost came in and asked me what to do. It was obvious. He walked towards her and did almost everything I did. Except for the CPR. No one ever puts their lips on my Harls. He looked at me with a sad expression on his face. She was gone. I kicked him out of the room and held her tight. My Harley, my beautiful Harls was gone forever. I cried. I've never cried with so much pain. I remembered a song I use to think of that reminded me of Harley. It went something like... "You are my Sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy, when skies are gray, you'll never know dear, how much I love you, please don't take my sunshine away." That song was in my head the whole night. I never let her go, I couldn't. I couldn't live without her. I had to see her smile again and her warmth. I kissed her one last time before I got my gun and put it on my temple. Before I pulled the trigger I told my Harley that I would see her again. I then pulled the trigger and saw nothing. It was pitch black. But I knew that somehow someway, I was going to find her. No matter how long it was going to be.
(Sorry for the sadness!😭)
