Never Ends (Prequel to Please Don't Go)

Chapter 33- Love Me

Joshua's POV

  Ever since S.Coups and I made love he has been avoiding me. That really hurts, because he was my first. I know S.Coups only thought of me as a friend from the being, but I fell in love with him after a week. I can't shake this feeling. Its not like a high school crush, this is serious. Everytime I have ever been around him my heart feels as if it's busting out of my chest. I am so in love with him, but he loves Jeonghan. I wish he would love me instead. I still remember how it feels to be in his arms. Him kissing my skin. His soft hands on my arms. I wish I could have it all the time. His touch is a drug to me. I need it. I am walking up to his dressing room door. I knock lightly and wait for a response. Suddenly the doors opens and he is in my field of view, with sweat dripping down his muscles and forhead.

"What were you doing?" I asked as I stared at his muscles.

"I was working out." He said.

"Oh." I said and continued to stare.

"Do you wanna come in?" He asked and I snapped back into reality.

"Oh! Yes." I said and walked in. He then closed the door behind me.

"So what brings you here Joshua?" He asked.

"You do." I said as I turned around to face him.

"What about me?" He asked. He pretended not to know.

"We need to talk about what happened." I said and he sat down.

"Oh." He said with a sigh.

"We made love. We did nothing wrong. Why are you so ashamed of that?" I asked.

"Because it was a mistake." He said as he held his face in his hands.

"How can you say that!?" I shouted. I have dated many girls, but I have never slept with any of them. He was my first and he called it a mistake.

"Because I love Jeonghan!" He screamed.

"THEN WHY DIDN'T YOU FUCK JEONGHAN!?" I screamed.

"BECAUSE HE DOESN'T WANT ME!" He screamed.

"SO THAT MEANS YOU HAVE TO DICK AROUND WITH MY EMOTIONS!? BECAUSE NEWS FLASH I LOVE YOU AND YOU DON'T LOVE ME! SO NOW YOU KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TO BE IN MY SHOES!" I screamed. Then he kissed me. I melted into the kissed. Before I knew what was happening S.Coups pushed me onto the couch and I ripped his shirt open.

3 hours later

Our breathing was heavy. It happened again. We made love again. Or to S.Coups it will be another mistake.

"Well I guess this was another mistake to you." I said bitterly.

"It wasn't actually. It gave me an idea." S.Coups said.

"What is it?" I asked.

"We are both very needy and alone. So I suggest that anytime we need human contact in anyway we call one another up." He said.

"So friends with benefits?" I asked.

"Not really. It could be anything, not just sex." He said.

"So are we dating then?" I asked.

"No. No one can know about us." He said.

"Why not?" I asked.

"It will complicate things." He said. "So are you in or not?" He asked and looked at me.

"I'm in." I said.

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