Anastacia's POV
I couldn't believe Jake had said that, I was actually embarrassed, but I hid it well. I mean really, Matt could have any woman he wanted, just look at him, he was gorgeous.
We drove to my place and I couldn't wait to get these damn shoe's off.
I went straight upstairs and sat on my bed.
"I need a shower." I said as Matt walked in "I need this makeup off and my hair, don't even get me started on that."
I undid my shoes, thankgod, and took them off.
"Can you help me get these pins out of my hair, there is like a thousand in it?" I asked Matt.
So he sat behind me and we pulled the pins out of my hair.
"Did you have fun?" I asked him, he was being very quiet.
"Yeah I did, well, I mean,"
"I know, most of it was ok." I interrupted, I knew what he meant.
It had been a nice wedding, I just hated the reason for it, mom.
"I think that's it." Matt said.
Good, I stood up "Now unzip me please." I turned my back to him again.
He unzipped my dress and I went into the bathroom.
I stood under the running water for a long time, washing my hair and my makeup off, and, well, I cried again.
I couldn't believe my sister was married, and as usual, crying for my mom, I cried everytime I thought about her, she would kill me if she knew.
I dried and got dressed and went to my bedroom, Matt was already in bed laying there, I wasn't sure if he was asleep or not.
I went downstairs and got a drink and looked around, I really needed to clean up, the house was a mess.
What Ana, your going to do that now? I asked myself.
I shook my head and went back upstairs turning the light's off as I went.
I climbed into bed and turned off my lamp.
I thought about what I was going to do tomorrow, maybe spend the day with mom, and that thought made me start crying all over again.
I needed to start coping, better than I was anyway, because I was not coping at all, out of anyone in my family I was the worst.
I felt Matt reach out and touch my hair, "Hey' he whispered.
I rolled over and faced him "I'm sorry Matt," I whispered "I'm sorry I've been no fun."
He reached out and pulled me into his arms and kissed my forehead.
"It's ok Ana, I don't mind, I don't mind at all."
Thankgod I had him in my life.
I snuggled into his chest and for the first time in a few weeks I fell asleep almost immediately.
