A Second Chance

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" Mum, I'm so sorry...." Harry's heart hurts when he hears his mother's desperate sobs while talking with her.
Ever since Louis dropped that bombshell he has felt guilty for not immediately telling his mum.
But it was for the sake of her sanity, wasn't it? How could he confront her with the truth when she was was on the edge after all. He has planned of  telling her though.
Not yet but later when her state would have been more stable.
She wasn't supposed to discover Gemma's maternity log hidden in the drawer of her nightstand. What was she looking for in the first place?

" Mum, shall I come over, I could be home in three hours ? " Harry offers knowing that his mum is all alone due to Robin being away on a business trip. " Harry, I don't want you to drive that late, and you also shouldn't miss classes again. It was great hearing your voice. I'll guess I can cope with it by myself now. Don't you worry about me. I'll be glad to see you on Wednesday to go more into detail what happened. I need to show you what I found earlier this day. Love you so much."
Harry doesn't approve that his mum is alone at home after what she has found out . With his mum still talking he sent Maura a message and asked whether she could keep his mother company later. She agreed instantly on visiting her friend without even knowing the exact reason.

It took a loaded off Harry's mind that his mum won't have to deal with that heart touching discovery all by herself.
Maura will be the right person to comfort his mum. They are friends since roughly fifteen years and know about the ups and downs of each other's life.
Harry has always been hoping to have such a deep friendship one day. He thought Louis and he would be such close and inseparable friends. However life is a betrayer.
Three weeks after Louis's dropped an the bomb and left their flat there is only little left from Harry's anger, from the wish to punch Louis in his face. Some intense and emotional conversations with Liam, Tom and Adrian helped also to understand and see things in a different light now.

Harry misses his former best friend. But how can they fix what happened when Louis is vanished from the face of the earth.
One thought is torturing him ever since. What tipped the scales that Louis and Gemma kept their love a secret ? Where they fearing his parents' reaction or rather panicking Harry wouldn't approve a connection between them?
Okay, the very thought needed getting used to. But Harry would have understood, would have supported true love. How could he not? That they didn't trust him has hurt, still pricks like thornes whenever this thought flashes his mind. Yet the more he's musing about Louis and Gemma the more he understands, sees Louis pain.
But how could he, his best friend assume that being Catholic or not would ever tip the scales to approve a relationship or not. It's utterly ridiculous !

Little did Louis know that the secret Harry has been keeping all the time  might blow up his family and their catholic self -concept. A secret Harry couldn't keep from him as they already shared the flat when Harry hooked up with random guys fourteen days in a row, hoping to forget a blonde angel with crooked teeth.

While Harry is in his room writing his English paper he receives another message from his mother "Maura just popped in. Stop worrying, she's with me now. Love you , mum"
It's relieving that he can now concentrate on his class work that shall be finished by Tuesday.
And Harry decides for himself it's early enough to map out a strategy while he will drive back home on Wednesday noon.

Hours feel like minutes and days like hours when they are filled with reading, writing and editing.

It's Wednesday noon and Harry is on his way back home. It won't be a walk in the park to face his parents and reveal everything that needed to be said.
It's still early enough to cop out. This thought pops in out of nowhere. But Harry has opted for telling the truth and he won't chicken out. Not this time.
He has stayed in the closet far too long, pretending to be someone else. His seventeen years old younger self thought it would be okay hiding in the closet.
Was convinced living in the open wouldn't be worth to blow his parents' peace of mind. That's what he has kept telling himself all the years.
But he's matured and 21 years old now and no longer willing to play hide and seek. He doesn't want to live his sexuality under favour of a bigger city far away. Surely nothing that he wants for him and Niall, if they will ever happen. There is nothing wrong with dreaming, hoping and praying that they will make it against all odds.