Where I Belong |luke hemmings|

Chapter 4

Kayla's POV

"This film is fucking boring" I grumbled for about the fifth time, "Wanna go a walk?" I asked the person to my left, it was Michael, "No, shh!" he said, putting his hand over my mouth to try and stop me talking. You see, we were all siting on the sofa watching Iron Man, but I just wasn't enjoying it, "Will you come a walk around town? Please?" I asked, now facing Calum, "No" he said, "I'll come a walk Kayla" Luke said, "Yay! Thank you Luke" I said jumping up and running upstairs to get dressed and grab shoes, "Get in there my boy!" I heard Michael shouting, I laughed.

I wasn't sure if I had a crush on Luke. All I know is that he's good looking and just what I look for in a boy. I'm in deep shit. I can't like a boy. Not after my past relationships. He'll hurt me. Just like everyone else.

I ran downstairs and followed Luke out the door, "So Kayla, um, how have you been?" Luke asked awkwardly, "I've been great Lukey, how about you?" I asked chuckling, "Yeah I've been alright" he said.

We walked around town for a while, filling the air with pointless chatter about random stuff and all our hopes and dreams, which, coincidently, seemed to be similar; to one day become a famous singer and be able to do concerts and shows for people.

That's all I want in life: to become a singer. Also, to find someone who won't cheat on me.

We came to a park and went to sit on the bench to catch our breaths from the walk, "So, Kayla, how about we, um, how about we go out sometime?" Luke asked me, oh shit! What do I do? I can't say no, he's so nervous, that will just kill him, but I can't say yes because I can't get attached.

"Um, sure" I said smiling, I couldn't say no to him. Plus, its only one date. I won't let myself get attached. I won't allow him to hurt me. I can't. I won't.

He smiled widely, "Really?" he asked, "Yeah" I said as I stood up, "Ready to go back now?" I asked, feeling it get more awkward by the second, he nodded as we headed back to my house in a comfortable silence.

"I'm gonna go get changed" I said heading up to my room and changing into my pyjama shorts and a baggy t shirt and heading back downstairs, "So you and Luke going on a date" Ashton said, I blushed, wait! Why am I blushing, "Uh, yeah" I said, "Its only a date guys" I said, instantly regretting it, Luke's face filled with pain, "Is that all it is? 'Just a date'?" he asked, I sighed, "I didn't mean it like that Luke" I said, "Forget it then Kayla, its just a date to you" he said, "Don't be like that mate, she didn't mean it like that" Ashton said, "I know clearly what she meant, this means nothing to her" he said as he walked to the kitchen.

"Are you alright Kayla?" Ashton asked, "I fucked up before I even had the date, that's gotta be some sort of record" I said as I let out a dry chuckle, "Do you like him?" he asked, "I don't know" I answered truthfully, "He's a great guy, a really great guy to be honest, but I just, my past relationships and cheating and liars and I can't deal with all of that again" I admitted, "I'm not ready, I'm sorry, tell Luke I'm sorry" I said running out, as usual, running from my problems.

Luke's POV

I can't believe myself, she doesn't even like me. I made a fool of myself.

I was in the kitchen with a glass of cold water, gulping down the ice cold liquid, clearing my mind of all things Kayla related.

"Do you like him?" I heard Ashton ask, "I don't know" I heard Kayla say, "He's a great guy, a really great guy to be honest, but I just, my past relationships and cheating and liars and I can't deal with all of that again" she also said, I sighed, I knew it was too soon. "I'm not ready, I'm sorry, tell Luke I'm sorry" I heard her say before the door slammed, I made my way to the sitting room, "She-she's ran away" Ashton said, "I'll go get her, she can't have went far" I said chasing her, oh how I was wrong.

Kayla's POV

At this point I was glad I like running and that I was fit enough to run without being out of breath. I was sure there was one of the boys following me but I wasn't gonna let them catch me, I just hurt Luke big time. I ruined my chances at having a good relationship. All because of my stupid past and my need to say stupid stuff at stupid times.

I fuck everything up.

I stop for a breath, I must have ran about a mile at least, I was out of breath, I sigh and sit down on a wall panting.

I hear footsteps and look up and see Luke standing there, "You run fast, fuck I can't breathe" he said, trying to catch his breath, "I'm so sorry Luke, I never meant it like that" I said as he sat down next to me, "I know Kayla, I'm sorry for over reacting, its just, I really like you and hearing you say 'it's just a date' made me feel like you didn't actually want to go on a date" he said, "I just meant it like its not as though we're getting married or anything, like its only a date" I said trying to make it sound better than it already did sound.

I honestly never meant to hurt Luke. I never meant it as if the date didn't mean anything.

"So, is our date still on?" Luke asked, "If you want it to be, then I'd be glad to accompany you" I said smiling, "Tomorrow?" he asked, "Sure" I said smiling as we headed back to Ashton and I's house where everyone was waiting for us.

"I'm sorry for running off" I apologised, "There's no need to apologise, its alright" Michael said, "Is everything alright with you two?" Ashton asked, "Yeah" I said smiling, "We're going out tomorrow" Luke said, I nodded, "Well boys, it looks like its just us three tomorrow" Ashton said, I chuckled as I checked my phone, "I gotta call Max, I haven't called him today" I said as I phoned him, "Hey Kayla" he said, "Hey Maxy, how are you?" I asked, "I'm good, how about you?" he asked, "I'm great" I said, "When are you coming to visit?" I asked, "Soon, I promise, just whenever I can scape up money for a flight, did you know they're like a thousand pound for a flight to Australia and back?" he said sounding shocked, "Really? Good job I won't be needing one then isn't it" I said chuckling, he laughed, "I have to go, its like early morning and I'm meeting up with Dylan today" he said, "Bye Max, see you soon" I said hanging up.

"So what film are we watching?" I asked, "How about Saw?" Calum asked, "Sure" I said, preparing to lie in the middle of the duvets and pillows, I got comfy and within a few seconds I was squashed between Luke and Ashton, "Ashton, Luke, we seem to have gotten closer these last few minutes" I spoke as I tried to get comfy again, succeeding and not even watching the film but falling asleep instantly, despite the very girly screams coming from the boys while they watched saw.