Where I Belong |luke hemmings|

Chapter 5

Kayla'a POV

"What should I wear Ash?" I asked, "I dunno, anything" he said, "You're no help, Mikey what should I wear today?" I asked, "Clothes" he said, "Ugh! Why don't you have any friends that are girls?" I asked, "Because we're guys" Ashton said, "I don't know what to wear! Call Luke and ask him what kind of clothes I should wear" I said, "Fine" Ashton said.

"He said normal clothes" Ashton said, I sighed as I grabbed a pair of light acid wash high waisted shorts and a floral crop top along with Nike Air Max. I pulled my hair into a messy fishtail braid and pulled it to the side, applying minimal make up and grabbing my phone, putting it into my pocket and heading downstairs, "You look great Kayla" Ashton said, "Thank you Ash" I said sitting on the sofa, "Luke said he'll be here in five minutes" Calum said, I nodded as I went to get a cup of water.

"Ready?" Luke asked, "Huh? Oh! Right, yeah, let's go" I said putting the glass down and making my way into the sitting room, "Luke! Since her dad is away, i'll take the role. Don't have her out too late, and there will be no teenage pregnancies in this house! I expect her home for ten tonight" Ashton said putting on an 'adult' voice, I chuckled, "Don't worry Mr Irwin, i'll have her home in plenty of time" Luke said holding in a laugh, "You guys are so weird, lets go Luke" I said as Ashton laughed and Luke and I left.

"So where are we going?" I asked, "Its a surprise" he said, "I hate surprises" I said, "Tough" he said laughing while he put the radio on and I hummed along to the song that was playing.

"Have you checked the comments on our YouTube video together?" Luke asked after a few seconds, "No, have you?" I asked, "No" he said, "I'm gonna check them" I said pulling my phone out and searching for '5 seconds of summer and Kayla Jepson'.

The results came up and I clicked on ours and looked at the comments, "Wow they're all really good, saying that you should do more videos together and that we sound good together and that I'm a slut, and that you guys are too good to be singing with me and that-" Luke cut me off, "Ignore them Kayla, you're a great singer" he said, "Thanks, I don't bother with them anyway, I've been called worse" I said, "You have? Like what?" he asked, "Nothing Luke, it's fine" I said, "You're lying Kayla, I can tell" he said, I smiled, "I made bad choices when I was younger and I made up for it at school, that's all" I said, "What did you do?" he asked.

"I just got in with the wrong crowd and started drinking and smoking when I was 14, I ended up having sex at 15 and getting a tattoo at 14 and I regret it now. I made up for those mistakes at school though, nobody lets you get away with anything, they always find your weakest point, they find the mistakes that you do and bring you down even more, making you feel even worse than you already do. Calling you names such as slut and whore and bitch and making you out to be 'easy' and to have guys use you, it just ruins you and breaks you down" I said, "I don't know what to say to that" Luke said, I chuckled, "There's not much to say about it, it's done and I've made my mistakes and learned from them, I've paid for the mistakes I made and I don't plan on doing them again" I said, "Did you ever do drugs?" he asked, "No, never will and never have" I spoke coldly.

Flashback

"No mummy, they're bad for you" a two year old me said as I watched my mum jag herself with heroine, "Baby, I'm sorry. It will make me better" my mum spoke, "Mummy they're bad, dadda told me that's bad" I said, tears spilling out of my eyes.

End of flashback

"Kayla are you okay?" Luke asked, "Huh? Yeah I'm okay" I said, "What were you thinking of?" he asked, "Nothing Luke, it's okay" I said.

He doesn't have to know.

Nobody else has to know my mum took drugs.

Nobody has to know she died of an overdose.

Nobody has to know how much of an alcoholic and druggy she was.

Nobody has to know she hit me a few times. Or that she took drugs in front of me.

Not even my dad.

My dad remembers her as a great woman, an amazing mother with a drug and alcohol problem. That's the way he should remember her.

As for me? I remember her for what she was. An alcoholic, druggy who hit her two and a half year old daughter.

Perhaps that's why I took a turn for the worst when I was 13.

Perhaps she's the reason I was so messed up and desperate to drink alcohol.

Perhaps she's the reason I'm scared to trust people.

Perhaps it's because of her.

"Come on Kayla, we're here" Luke said stopping the car and getting out, he opened my door and helped me out, we were at the top of a cliff, "You're not fed up with me ready are you? Are you gonna like push me off, making it as if I fell and then run away" I asked laughing, "Damn it, am I that transparent?" Luke asked, "Yeah" I said laughing as he brought a blanket and a carrier bag out, "I don't have a picnic basket" he said as he sat the carrier bag in between us, I chuckled and took pictures of the scenery and the great view.

We began eating the food Luke packed, "These are some nice sandwiches" I said laughing, "Hey! Don't hate on my sandwiches, I worked hard making them" Luke said, I chuckled and continued to eat the ham and cheese sandwiches, "I also have strawberries and whipped cream" Luke said pulling them out of the plastic carrier bag, "When did you become romantic?" I asked, "I googled ideas for a date last night and this came up" he said laughing, I laughed and shook my head as I opened the tub of strawberries, Luke grabbed the whipped cream as he sprayed it in my mouth while I ate a strawberry.

I took the whipped cream and sprayed it all over Luke's face, I laughed and stood up, running away before he could have revenge, he chased me around the grass until I tripped and fell, Luke caught me and sprayed whipped cream all over me, it was in my hair and all over my clothes, "Asshole" I said laughing as I licked my lips which tasted like whipped cream, "Mmm, tasty" Luke said grabbing a strawberry and rubbing it in my hair so it was covered in whipped cream and then eating it, "Glad one of us got to enjoy the strawberries and cream" I said laughing, "Come on, its like dinner time almost" Luke said helping me to my feet and dragging me to the car, "Don't get any cream on my seats" he said, I chuckled and sat down, cautious as to not get whipped cream anywhere.

"So, did you have fun?" Luke asked, I chuckled, "With an exception of falling and getting covered in whipped cream, yes, I enjoyed myself" I said, he chuckled, "Do I get another date?" He asked, I thought about it, "Only if you don't google it" I said laughing, he chuckled, "Promise I won't" he said, "Then sure, i'll gladly go on another date with you" I said as we neared the house.