Where I Belong |luke hemmings|

Chapter 21

Kayla's POV

"Kayla how did you do?" Ashton asked with the biggest smile ever on his face, "Well he told me he didn't think I was prepared for what becoming a singer was and I told him I was, and he said he wasn't going to sign me and I stormed out, what about you guys?" I asked, "We got signed!" Luke shouted, I smiled at them, I was genuinely happy for them, but I wasn't happy for myself.

"Don't worry Kayls, I'm sure he will come to his senses" Luke reassured, "I doubt that, I told him to shove his record label up his ass, I fucked it up" I said sighing, "Its okay Kayls, there will be other chances" he said, "No there won't Luke, I get it, you're trying to cheer me up but don't lie, I fucked my one and only chance up, 'cause that's all I ever do, fuck stuff up" I said, "Im guessing you're not coming with us to celebrate?" Michael said, "Obviously not. What have I got to celebrate? The fact I'm a fuck up?" I said, he sighed, "Ash I'm taking your car home, is that okay?" I asked, "Uh, yeah i'll just go with Luke" he said giving me his keys, I nodded and drove home.

Why did I have to be such a fuck up?

I ruin every good thing that ever happens to me.

I went to the cupboard in the house and grabbed the bottle of vodka that was there from a while back, I opened it and poured a glass of it, downing it and scrunching my face up at its sour taste, straight vodka is disgusting, but it takes my mind off of everything I've fucked up in my life.

Maybe I am turning into my mother.

I drank more and more of the vodka and before I know it, the bottle is empty and I'm lying on the floor, everything around me is spinning and my vision goes blank.

I am just like my mother.

Drinking my problems away.

"Kayla, Kayla honey! Kayla please get up" Anne's voice said, I open my eyes and squint at the light, "What happened?" I asked, "You drank a litre of straight vodka and passed out, what happened to you?" She asked, "I messed up with the audition thing" I said sighing, "Awh! Honey I'm sure it's not that bad" she said, "Ugh! Why does everybody say that? It is that bad, I messed it up so badly, I told him to shove it up his ass just 'cause he didn't sign me, I shouted at my best friends 'cause they were trying to cheer me up, I came home and drank a litre of straight vodka, I've messed my life up! Im turning into my mother" I said, "Kayla no you're not, don't even say that" she warned, "It's true though Anne" I said wiping my tears, "I'm gonna go in a bath" I said getting up from my bed and slumping off to the bathroom to run a bath, slipping in and letting the roasting hot water settle around me, relaxing my tense muscles and calming me down.

After about a half hour I got out, putting on clean clothes, a pair of grey sweats and a white t shirt, I towel dried my hair and French braided it quickly, before going into my room and grabbing my phone, I had missed calls from all of the boys, and texts from them, I read all the texts, the first couple from each of them were nice ones, telling me they really hoped I was okay, and not to do anything stupid, too later, and that I would get another chance, but as if got later the texts got more along the lines of 'Why aren't you answering Kayla' and 'what the hell have you done' and then ones telling me I messed up, wow, what a way to make me feel better.

I noticed one from Luke, only one text from him? I read it, it was quite long.

From Lukey: kayls, I know you're not in a good mood, I don't blame you, just don't do anything you'll regret, I'm here for you always, don't forget that. I don't care what you think, you haven't fucked up kayls! You will get another shot one day, I know that. I love you so much, don't ever ever ever forget that, i'll see you tomorrow xx

I smiled a bit and set my phone down to charge, I went downstairs and walked into the kitchen to get a glass of water, "Kayla will you come here please?" Dad shouted, "Yeah in a second" I shouted back before downing the water and grabbing a biscuit and heading into the sitting room, "What are you all doing here?" I asked, "Here to tell me about how I messed up? Or are you here to tell me other stuff I already know?" I said through gritted teeth, "I told you guys she would have saw them" Luke stated, "Well if you weren't too busy snogging other girls maybe you would have stopped us" Ashton said, "Excuse me?" I said, "You were what Luke?" I asked, "I swear kayls, I never" he said, "Im, um, gonna leave you all alone" Dad said, "I can't believe you Luke" I said, "You were kissing another girl while I was getting abuse from my apparent best friends?" I said, "Girls, multiple girls" Ashton said, I grumbled under my breath, "I am so fucking done with all of you" I stated before running off out the house.

I ran as far and a fast as my feet would take me, I ended up in another neighbourhood, and I literally ran into someone, a guy about my age with dark jeans, dark shoes and a black hoodie with the hood up, "Watch where you're going bitch" he said, "Don't call me a bitch, asshole" I said, "Who do we have here? Some British chick who thinks she's better than the rest of us?" he said, "No, you have a British chick who will kick your ass if you don't get out of my way" I stated before pushing by him, "This won't be the last you see me, I promise you" he said, "Can't wait" I shouted before flipping him off and walking away.

Within a few seconds I felt a breath on my neck, I got scared and looked around, I saw the same guy that I just flipped off, "What the fuck do you want?" I asked, "Have you ever drank before?" he asked, "Yes" I said, "Ever smoked?" he asked, I sighed, "Yes" I said, "Ever had sex?" He asked, "What does this have to do with you?" I asked, "Answer the question" he said, "Yes," I said, "Leave me the fuck alone" I added, "Sorry babe, no can do, you're coming with me" he said grabbing my hand and leading me somewhere, "Ha. No. I don't think so" I said pulling back my hand and running off, he chased me and caught up to me, pulling me by the hair and dragging me towards wherever his destination for me was.

I was petrified right now, I was so scared, I didn't know where I was, who this guy was, or what he wanted with me.

"So what is your name pretty girl" the guy asked, "Get to fuck" I said, "What the fuck is your name?" he asked, his grip on my arm tightening, I let out a small scream, "K-Kayla" I said quietly, "Good, pretty name for a pretty girl, I'm Kieran, it's a pleasure to meet you" 'Kieran' said, "I bet it is" I mumbled, "Watch your attitude, bitch" he said, "I dare you to insult me or call me a bitch again" I said, "Okay, bitch" he said, I threw a punch in his direction, he punched me on the cheek, I let out a cry, but we were in a dark alley where nobody could hear or see us.

I grabbed my arm free and kicked his groin, he leaned over and grabbed it and I took my chance, I kicked him full force and ran, I looked back, half expecting him to be lying on the ground, half expecting him to be chasing me, but he was neither chasing me or lying on the ground.