Where I Belong |luke hemmings|

Chapter 23

Kayla's POV

I walked towards the car which was parked, I knocked on the driver window and down went the window, my eyes were closed, I was scared to open them, "Kayla?" the voice said, gasping loudly, my eyes shot open and I saw my dad sitting there, "Dad" I said, tears pouring out of my eyes, he got out quickly and pulled me into him, I hugged him tightly, not wanting to let go, "Come on, let's get you home" he said, helping me into the car and driving us both home.

We walked into the house where everyone was sitting, and by everyone I mean Anne, Ashton, Luke, Michael and Calum, "Kayla honey, you had us all so worried" Anne said pulling me into a hug, "Im so sorry" I said wiping my tears, "I am such a mess up, I'm just like my mother" I said, I kept repeating that one statement over and over again, "Honey, you're nothing like your mother" my dad reassured, "I am dad! I am" I said crying even more, "How come?" he asked, "I drink my problems away, I am a mess up, I actually mess everything up, a-and I took heroin today" I said, tears running down my cheeks, "Kayla? Is that true?" Ashton asked, "Yes" I said, by this time my dad was crying, "Dad? What are you crying for?" I asked, "Because I don't want you to be like your mother Kayla, you have your full life ahead of you" he said, "I can't help it if my mother was a druggy alcoholic asshole, and I can't help it if there's a part of her inside of me" I stated before walking to my room.

I sat for an hour myself, reading through all my tweets, following people, I also saw something about 5sos touring, something I would have to look into of course.

There was a knock at my door, "Come in" I said, in walked Luke, "What do you want? You gonna tell me about me fucking my life up? Or are you gonna tell me some bullshit about how you love me, and how you'll always be here and other shit? Take your pick" I said, "I'm here to talk about last night kayls" he said, "Don't call me Kayls" I said, "Look, I swear to you, I never kissed multiple girls, I swear to you Kayla, you know I wouldn't lie to you, I promise you Kayla, you gotta believe me" he pleaded, "Why would Ashton lie?" I asked, "Because you were mad at them and not me, so he thought that by putting the spotlight on me, he would get away with the shit he said to you, but he didn't, I already spoke to him" he said, I didn't know who to believe.

"I'm so confused right now" I said, "You have to believe me" Luke said, "Your story does make sense, and I understand, but why would he say you kissed a lot of girls?" I asked, "Because he knows what would piss you off the most, Kayla" he said coming closer to me, he took my hand and placed it on his chest, "You know I love you Kayls, and I know how hard it was for you to trust me enough, so why would I kiss someone else?" he said, I sighed, "I don't know Luke, Ashton is my brother" I said, "And I'm your boyfriend" he said.

"Im sorry Luke but until Ashton tells me himself that he lied, then-then I believe him" I said, pain shot through his eyes, "What kind of relationship is this Kayla? You don't even trust me? This isn't the kind of relationship I wanna be in" Luke said, "I don't know Luke, I don't wanna think that my brothers lying but I don't wanna think you're lying" I said, "Then until you make up your mind I think we should take a break" he said simply, walking out of my room, I wiped the tears from my face and decided to go and shower.

Once I had came out of the shower and had blow dried my hair and put on clean pyjamas, I went down the stairs to find Ashton alone, "Hey ash, can we talk?" I asked, he nodded and I went and sat next to him, "I wanna start" he said, "Okay, go then" I said, "I am really, really sorry Kayla, I don't know what came over me, I shouldn't have told you that you fucked your life up straight after your audition thing, I shouldn't have been so mean to you, you're my little sister and I'm supposed to look out for you, I'm supposed to support you, not put you down when you're down enough, and I know Luke told you I lied about him kissing girls, I'm so sorry for that" he said.

"So you really did lie about that?" I asked, "Yeah, I'm sorry" he said, "You have no idea what you've done ash, Luke and I broke up 'cause I trusted you! I can't believe you" I said, "Hey! I thought this was one of those I'm sorry, you're sorry moments, I'm being honest Kayla" he said, "I gotta call Luke" I said, "Look ash, I'm sorry for running away and being a bitch, I know I'm a pain in the ass to live with, I'm hard to be friends with and I fuck everything up with everyone at one point, but I'm glad I have a brother like you" I said hugging him, "I gotta go get Luke" I said running out, "Im taking your car" I said before grabbing his keys and hopping into the car, driving towards Luke's house.

I knocked on the door and his mother answered, "Kayla honey, I, um, I don't think Luke wants to see you right now" Liz said, there was tears in the brim of my eyes, "You gotta let me see him Mrs Hemmings, I made a huge mistake" I said, "Yeah you didn't trust him, and you can call me Liz, kayla, you know that" she said, "Not exactly, it was because I didn't know who was lying, my brother or Luke but I know Luke was telling the truth" I said, "Hey, don't tell me, tell Luke, he's in his room honey" Liz said, I nodded as I walked by her and went to his room, knocking on the door.

"Come in" Luke's muffled voice said from the other side, I opened the door and walked up to his bed, sitting next to him, "I am so sorry Luke" I said quietly, "You should have believed me Kayla" he said without looking up, "I didn't know who to believe Luke, it wasn't exactly that I didn't believe you, it was mostly the fact that I didn't wanna think of Ashton lying to me about that after everything I told him about my past" I said, for the first time since I came in, Luke looked up and straight into my eyes, "I love you Luke, I really do, and I am sorry for not believing you, but don't think for one minute I don't trust you 'cause I do, I definitely trust you, I trust you with my life" I said, "Im sorry Kayla, I love you so much, I really do, but..--but we can't be together just now" he said, my heart stopped, "W-what?" I asked, "Our band is going on tour in a week Kayla, it wouldn't be fair on any of us" he said, "You can't do this Luke, don't do it" I pleaded, "Im sorry kayls, but I have to break up with you" he said, I let the tears slide down my face as I stormed out of the room and down the stairs.

I bumped into Liz, "Are you okay?" she asked, I tried holding it in, "Yeah, I'm fine" I lied, the most common lie we tell is 'I'm fine'. I must have told that lie a million times in my 17 and a half years of life. And it looks like the older I get, the more frequent that lie becomes.