Seek And Destroy [COMPLETED]

Chapter 19 : In Love With Him Again.

I'm on a plane.

A private plane.

The royal plane of Derentia plane.

I kept bouncing up and down on my seat. I chose the one near the window. I hear someone else sit next to me.

Derick.

For a second I thought it was Edward. Ever since that time in the night he's been avoiding me... not talking to me... as if nothing ever happened. As if he never confessed something at all.

He was sitting with Raina obviously. But when I turned back; I can see his eyes trained disgustedly at her. She was ranting about some day at the Spa and about a bitch who smudged her perfect pink nail polish.

Typical bitch calling others a bitch.

'So... here we are. Again', Derick told me.

'I guess so. The ostrich and the goose'

'Since when did I become a goose?', Derick whined. I chuckled. I really liked Derick but he never gave me the feeling Edward did. Like as if I was being lifted and the way I felt as if I was as light as a feather.

That feeling; only Edward can give me. After last night, my thoughts always got back to Edward.

In the morning; I dialed Alice and told her everything. Including the Edward scenario.

She just told me to get over him already and stomp over his heart with red stiletto heels.

Such a nice friend.

I guess she won't be happy to hear that I might be falling in love with him again.... or maybe not. Not again.

I was always in love with him. Down to my bones that I wish I was with him.

'Elena? You alright? You kind of zoned out for a bit', Derick asked, concern clearly shown on his eyes.

'Sorry. Zombie moments. Didn't have a good sleep', I manage to let out,'Might have a nap on the journey'

'You can rest your head on my shoulder if you like. Don't worry, I'm not all muscle. I have a very good cushion body', he tells me.

I laugh,'Okay'

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*Edward's View*

Okay, I'm a total idiot. I'll admit that much.

But that night... i felt -don't laugh, please- like it was the moment. The moment to confess to her that I still love her.

Love her.

Man, I have sunk. I'm not a man who likes to surround himself with emotions. I share my love to my family only... to any outsider? To any woman? I used to find that revolting. But now... Elena comes by and changes my everyday schedule of being an emotionless workaholic demon to something totally different.

Damn her, she screwed me real bad.

She's sleeping now; her head on that filthy Derick's shoulder. I've been avoiding her since yesterday. Any remembrance of last night's conversation would turn each other's company awkwardly silent.

I look at Raina who's still looking at her nails which seemed fine by the way. Smudged or not. It was fine. I'll never understand her.

If it was Elena, she probably would have blamed herself for moving and smudging the damn nail polish. But here I am, listening to Raina yap yapping away on a poor saloon worker.

Wow, I'm becoming considerate in calling the worker poor. I don't normally ever feel any pity or guilt. I never did. Even when I bumped in to Elena; I made the owner fire her immediately. I was just that angry then.