My Two Best Friends|G.D|E.D

7|"thoughts that were drowning me"

| Beth |

The sound of my phone ringing woke me up.

I opened up my eyes to feel Grayson holding me tight in his arms, as he was still dead asleep. I struggled a bit to get out of Grayson's grip, but I did.

I got up and saw Ethan already awake just staring up at the ceiling as he layed on the couch. At this point, the the ringing of my phone stopped and I missed the call.

"Good morning sleeping beauty," Ethan said as he stared at the ceiling.

I groaned as I picked up my phone from the floor, "Ugh, why are you awake? You were shit drunk last night."

Ethan chuckled and finally looked over at me, "No I wasn't."

I unlocked my phone and saw I missed a call from Damien. Damn, I'll call him back later.

"Seriously? You could barely walk and you and Grayson were singing the ABC's together," I pointed at Grayson, "And, look at Grayson. He's competely hungover."

All of a sudden Grayson woke up from 'sleeping', "Nope. I'm fine. I had 2 beers tops last night."

I sat down on the couch confused, "Huh?"

Grayson got up from the bed and took off the shirt he was wearing last night, we all fell asleep in our party clothes.

As Grayson took off his shirt, he revealed his amazing hard chest that caused me to gulp as I couldn't stop staring. I stopped staring at his body and connected with his eyes, and noticed his smirking.

Ethan fake coughed noticing what was happening.

I tucked a piece of hair behind my ear and gulped, "Then why did you guys act like that?"

Ethan went straight forward, "We wanted attention from you. But, you gave your attention to Damien."

I looked over at Grayson and he was putting a different shirt on and nodding in agreement.

My eyebrows furrowed, but my phone rang once more.

"Damien is calling again?" Ethan scoffed as he took my phone out of my hands.

I tried to get my phone back, but Ethan already accepted the call.

"Beth?" Damien's voice sounded raspy, it was sexy.

Ethan shook his head and scoffed, "Hey, It's Ethan. Why are you calling Beth so much, huh?"

Damien went silent but slowly answered, "Can I speak to Beth?"

I looked up at Grayson sitting on his bed watching Ethan and I sit on the couch, and he rolled his eyes.

"Ethan, give me my phone," I whisper shouted.

Ethan stood up getting away from me, "Leave Beth alone, Damien! She's not into you. Goodbye."

Then, Ethan hung up on him.

"Ethan! What the fuck? I am into Damien!" I said as I snatched my phone from his hands.

Grayson and Ethan both looked at me with wide eyes. I totally just forgot that they're both in love with me. Fuck, they must be heartbroken.

"Oh, I'm sorry," Ethan stuttered.

Grayson slowly sat down on the couch and rubbed his eyes.

I winced my eyes feeling sorry now, "I'm sorry guys. I-I forgot. I'm just going to go."

I got my stuff and left the two alone in Grayson's room, and they didn't say bye to me.

I made it to their front yard and realized that I drove Ethan's car last night, and that I don't have a ride home.

I got my phone and called Damien. It rang 3 times and he answered.

"Hi, Damien?" I asked.

Damien sighed, "Thank god, it's finally you."

I laughed, "Yeah, I'll explain everything only if you pick me and take me to eat. I'm at the Dolans house."

"Of course," Damien replied.

I'm really starting to like this kid.

10 minutes waiting outside of the Dolans house and Damien pulled up in his red mustang.

I hopped in, "Thanks for picking me up."

As I got in, Damien leaned over and held my face in his hands and kissed me. He leaned back and face palmed.

"I'm sorry, Beth. I just really like you," Damien smiled with his hands on his face.

I grabbed his hands away his face and leaned over the console and smashed my lips against his. The tension needed to be broken.

I leaned back and smirked, "I like you too."

Damien smiled hard that caused me to blush, what a beautiful smile.

"Let's go somewhere," I say getting comfortable.

Damien placed his warm hand on my inner thigh, "Let's go."

I'm catching feelings.

| Ethan |

Grayson and I watched Beth happily jump into Damien's car, leaving us for him.

"This Damien kid is fucking senior year up for us," I muttered as I glared through the window.

Grayson sighed, but didn't let out a word.

The passenger seat window faced us, that was rolled down, so we could see inside. The view I saw sent a shock down my spine.

Damien leaned in to kiss Beth. And, Beth let him. Then, Beth leaned in to kiss Damien. And, Damien let her.

At that exact moment was when I felt my whole heart completely drop to my stomach. It was a feeling like no other, but it was similar to when Beth and Grayson kissed. But, this was far worse, beyond worse. Because Beth actually likes Damien, she didn't like Grayson.

The feeling of knowing that you're never going to be enough for that one person you want to be enough for, can make you fucking rot. It sends pumps up blood through your veins that don't feel right. My heart is beating, but it's aching. My eyes are awake, but they don't want to be.

There is no word to describe it, execpt devastated. I'm utterly devasted.

I've saved my heart for Beth for seven years. And, I plan on seven more. I don't imagine myself with anybody else. In seven years from now, she'll probably be happily married with a baby, while I'm still the best friend. That's what I've always been these past seven years, what makes me think it's gonna change in another seven?

Grayson and I stood there in silence? knowing that both of us are feeling the same ache.

"We have to do it again," Grayson walked away from the window and sat at the edge of his bed.

I knew exactly what he was talking about, "Agreed, but it's just going to hurt her again."

Grayson sighed, "I know."

I walked out of Grayson's room to go to mine. I grabbed a hold of my door and slammed it to the point it shook the entire house.

I extended my fist back and aimed for my wall in front of me, then my fist went through it.

At the exact same time, I heard Grayson's wall break in the room beside me. We both punch a hole in our walls out of frustration.

I layed my back against my door and slid my back down it, soaking in all these thoughts that were drowning me.