Right or Wrong? {complete}

A childish thing Part 2

Steve and Natasha (POV)
Steve:

I watch as she hesitates. Probably searching her brain for excuses. I knew I was stupid to fall for her. She never loved me but I let me self love her. I couldn't help it though. She was everything I ever wanted. Which is why I was so disappointed that she didn't love me back. Maybe she did. I wish I had a way of knowing. She was impossible to get a read on 90% of the time.

I watch her waiting. I'm still angry from what she did. But all the anger vanishes when I see her eyes well up with tears and she starts to slowly talk.

"I look at you and I.." She is slow, as if she is carefully choosing and considering the right words." I just love you and it terrifies me what I would do for you." She finishes.

I'm so concerned about her that I don't even catch those three words, that I wanted to hear so badly. Before I say anything she goes on

" I'm a cold blooded killer Steve. And if you knew, oh god if you knew the things I've done." She says while her eyes redden up from holding in the tears.
I grab her hand but she quickly pulls it away. "I'm not the type of girl that settles down in a nice White House with a dog and children. I'm dangerous. I have targets on me everywhere I go. And I know you do too. But with me you are in even more danger. And if.." She is slightly choking on her words from sadness. Still I let her go on.

"If something happened to you on my account or not, I... I don't know what I would do." She stops talking because I pull her to me.

I hold her close, maybe too close. And then I say the only thing I can think of " Natasha don't you see? If something happened it would be worth it."

She pulls away and starts shaking her head. "It would be worth it because I got to spend part of my life with the most incredible person I know and love."

Still she shakes her head. "I choose you Nat. I don't care how much danger I might be out it. I choose you. And I will keep choosing you over and over again no matter what."

She looks up at me and for a second I think she will give in but she starts taking again. "I'm not good for you Steve. You need someone normal." I put a hand on her cheek
" No I need you."

She pushes my hand away. "You should be with someone else. Someone like Sharon. She's... she's nice and smart and pretty."

I sigh and respond "You want to know why I can't be with Sharon?" I look at her expectantly. "Why?" She ask slightly annoyed.

"Because she's not you." I try reach for her hand again but she moves a few steps away and shifts her gaze to the floor. Her next words hurt even if I know she doesn't mean them.

"I don't love you Steve. I just can't." Her gaze stayed on the floor.
"Say that again and look me in the eyes." I refuse to let her go so easily.
"Don't torture me." She pleads but she still looks away.

I grab both her hands and hold them tightly enough so that she can't pull away.

"Natasha please. Don't do this. I know you want this. You have to want this. I know it's selfish but I need you. You can't give up that easily. Please Nat, just do what feels right for once."

Natasha:
He was right. I did want this. I wanted him. And when I recall all the times I've been held in his arms or kissed him, it did feel right. It felt so right. It was too perfect. He was too perfect for words. And an assassin like me isn't supposed to be with someone perfect.
He was testing me, so I returned the favor.

"Last night you said you loved me." I tell him, wanting to hear it again. It felt so good hearing him say it.

"And I've never been more honest." He replies quickly.
Like he made up his mind a long time ago. I don't know why but I let myself fall for him. And when he pulls me into another hug I don't pull away.

"I'm damaged goods Rogers." I say bluntly and looking up at him.
"I love you for whatever you are." And with that we are kissing. When we break apart for breath I rest my head against his chest. And I whisper against his jacket "я люблю тебя" ( Russian for I love you) not knowing that he heard me.

I know this seems like the perfect happy ending but he doesn't even know. He doesn't know the real monster I am. And it's about time he finds out.

***Again sorry for the cheesy stuff but I did want to put some fluffy romanogers stuff in here. I'm going to try get some not so cheesy stuff in here too I promise. Thanks for reading!***