Impossible (Jerrie)

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Jade's pov

I was cuddling with Perrie while watching a movie with Lee and Jess. After the film finished,neither of us were tired,so we talked about bunch of stuff and then we all wanted to play truth or dare so thats what we did.

"You know the truths and dares will not be so hard now that you are togheter!" Jesy says to us and Pez giggles.

I loved her in so many ways.

"So,Jade. Truth or dare?" Leigh Anne asks me

"Uhh..truth. I am to lazy to do something right now" i say laughing and Perrie did the same.

"Have you had another relationship except Perrie?" She asks me and I start thinking

"Uh..i don't think so. You see,this is my first time actually socialising with people. Back when I was in Dublin I barely had any 'friends' " i say and i immediately started feeling a little bit sad

"Hey,it's okay. You have us now" Perrie says giving me a small kiss on the cheek

"Perrie,truth or dare?" I ask my girlfriend

"Dare" she says looking at me in the eyes

"I dare you to kiss me! " i say laughing

"Yes Perrie do it pleaseee!" Leigh Anne says jumping

She leaned in for a kiss and I let her. She asked for permission and I gave it to her. I wanted to make the kiss deeper so i put my arms around her neck. I loved her so much.

"Y'all I told you jerrie is real since the first time i saw you" Jesy says when we break our kiss

Me and Perrie both laugh. Her smile gave me a reason to stay alive and not end it all. If it wasn't for her,I would probably be dead by now. She saved my life.

After playing a couple more rounds of truth or dare,Pez,Lee and Jesy were tired so we decided to go to sleep. We were all sleeping in the living room because Jessica had a huge one and enough sofas for all. She had the tipe of sofas that can change into a bed,so that was very comfortable. I slept next to Perrie,obviously.

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3:47am . I couldn't sleep. Something was bothering me. My mind was filled with so much thoughts that they wouldn't let me sleep at all. I went straight to the bathroom and locked the door behind me,hoping not to wake anyone.

I looked at my reflection in the mirror. At all my imperfections. Since I came here my life has certainly went better,but it was always inside me. That feeling. I don't know how to qualify it. Everyone used to say i had depression,but nobody would care about that because Sophie already went to a psychologist and we couldn't aford mine so my mental health was going down.

It got better. But not enough. All the bad thoughs,memories and things that everyone said to me came into my mind all at once and i rolled in a ball on the floor,silently crying.

I was in panic. I couldn't move my arms or my legs. I couldn't control my own body. But why? Everything went so well,everything was fine. Why now?

"Why? Why? Why?" I kept says while sobbing and trying to dry my own tears.

That's when i heard a knock on the door.

Perrie's pov

3:49. I was sleeping until i wanted to hug and cuddle Jade but..she wasn't in the bed.

She's probably just going to the bathroom.
I think.

I've waited another 3 minutes and I've decided to go see what's going on.

I went to the bathroom,because there was the only light on. I heard her crying and whispering a question..why?

"Jade are you fine? Can i come in?" I knock at the door,careful not to wake the others

"I'm fine I'll be back in a second" she says but i didn't believe her

Her voice was so heavy. Like she had been crying. She isn't fine. I want to help her. I want her to see the happiness. I want to be her happiness.

"J,I know you are not okay. Can you please open the door?" I whisper to her,and she opened the door very carefully.

I immediately hugged her and she hugged back. I've kissed her but she pulled off.

"What is going on?" I ask

"Nothing you silly" she says,kissing me harder

"No,really. What's going on?" I ask her and her expression quickly changed.

"I don't know Perrie. I am a failure. I am a bad person. I do not deserve happiness. I understand if you want to broke up,i do" she says crying harder and harder by every second that passed

"What? Jade? No! You deserve all the happiness in the world. And how can I broke up with you? You are my sunshine Jade. I love you so so much" i say hugging her tightly and kissing her forehead.

"That was so cheesy" she says laughing and looking at me

"You are important to me,ok? Don't forget that"

She nodded and we went back to our. bed. We cuddled until Jade was asleep. She was a walking angel. I feel like I've been knowing her forever.

That night i fell asleep looking at her face.

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