Impossible (Jerrie)

forty three

Jade's pov

All I did yesterday was thinking about Chris and reliving the awful moments that happened. I don't understand what is his problem with me,I moved here to have a new life not to deal with the old one. But I guess that the past haunts you no matter what.

I got dressed for school,as it is Monday and we all returned at school. There wasn't so much snow as the last week,but it was still freezing cold. Mom wasn't there to talk to me,she's already at work. I can't imagine how hard it must be for her,dad left us and God knows when we will come back from Cardiff.

I already told Perrie everything and she said she will come pick me up right after she got out of the hospital where her mother is kept. Her situation has gotten worse since last time I visited her a while ago. She barely remembers Perrie and she can't even talk properly. This is a huge misfortune in Perrie's life,but all we can do now is hope for the best.

After she arrived,I got into the car and she seemed hurt and a little bit off. She just looked at the steering wheel   with a blank expression on her face and started driving right away. While we were waiting for the light to turn green,I started to speak up.

"What's going on?" I turned my face to her,but she was just looking outthe window,waiting.

"What do you me-"

"You know what I mean. What's bothering you,Pez?" I ask and she drove forward,as the light turned green.

"I'm concerned,okay?" She told me in a soft voice

I nodded and looked at down at my hands. I should've thought about this,even if I tried my best to just try and not think about the fact that Chris is in the same town as me,and try to focus on the best of things,even if I can't find that most of the times.

We arrived at school and the whole time,since getting out of the car,to the classroom,Perrie didn't leave my sight. I got sick of it,but I know she is only concerned about me,and it makes me feel comfortable,knowing she's there when I need,but not when I needed her the most.

We were at lunch break and I haven't seen Chris or I haven't heard something about 'a new student'. Maybe he just got tired of me. After trying to eat my lunch,my eating disorder problems didn't help at all,I went to the restroom,alone this time.

That's when I see him. He was laughing with other boys,but didn't seem to be very close with them. I just stared for a few seconds,then when I noticed they were coming my way,I turned around and started looking for Perrie. She wasn't in the canteen and I was kind of frightened.

"Jade! Is that really you?" I heard his voice calling out for me but I continued walking,a little bit faster this time.

But,he has long legs,and my walk is much different than his,so he reached me in a couple of seconds. My heart felt like it was going to get out of my chest at any moment,but at they same time,it wanted to stop.

"Jade,what are you doing here? Such a surprise to meet you,again." He says touching my waist and I back off in a very subtile way.

"Uh..good,I guess." I say,looking behind his shoulder,seeing Perrie who was waving at me,to go to her.

"Is everything okay,Jade?" He asks me once again and I can not believe how fake he is.

"Actually,I have to go now..uh,see you around,I think." I say,pointing at Perrie who was now waving back at both of us.

When I wanted to go to her,he grabbed my hand and whispered something in my ear.

"Your friend will not be here next time. See you around darling,be careful." He said that and then left. Just like that,like nothing happened.

"Jade are you okay oh my God." Perrie came to right after that,and Chris noticed and looked at me and her with a death glare.

Perrie grabbed my hand and we left in a more quiet place. She kept asking me questions and I told her about how I bumped into him.

"So you just said that I was there and he let you go? Just like that?" Perrie seemed suspicious.

"Yes. Nothing more,nothing less." I say,avoiding the part with 'him telling me to be careful when she's not around.

I didn't want her to treat me like a child,like I can't take care or myself. I can do that,when I was in Dublin I didn't have any good friends like I have here,those 'friends' back there. They would rather use me to make their homework than treating me like a real friend. That's how I got used to all of this,and that's when I started to watch out for myself. The loneliness,is so much more quiet and relaxing.

"Uh,okay. Just know that I am here for you,you know that right?" She asked me and I nodded and we hugged for a couple of seconds.

That's when my phone started ringing. It was my mom so I accepted the call almost right away.

"Jade? Could you please come home,dear? Fast,it's an emergency."

I grabbed my backpack and I rushed out of the doors.

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Hello gosh it feels good to write again.