Impossible (Jerrie)

forty four

(Sorry that you had to wait so much for this chapter,and i am very sorry i feel like this chapter didn't turn out as good as i thought it would,this isn't one of my greatest chapters. I will update more tommorow! Thanks ♡ )

Jade's pov

I was now running to Perrie's car right after I read that message. I know she wouldn't mind,so I kept running with her behind me.

I got into the drivers seat,making Perrie seat to my right. I know that she wouldn't make me seat in the drivers seat,because she always wants to drive and in this moment I was too scared and I needed to drive fast.

All the way to my home,Perrie kept telling me to slow down but I wasn't thinking straight. I was scared of what might happen when I go home.

When I entered my street,I saw 2 cars. 2 police cars. The blue and red lights were almost blinding me,as the dark was already seateling in. I almost immediately get out of the car,without even looking at my friend (or girlfriend) who was in the other seat. I ran to my front door,Perrie was right behind me,even if she was hesitating because she didn't know if it was alright to just come inside my house in this situation,especially after everything we went through.

Mom was sitting on the couch,in front of her 3 cups of tea. When I get a closer look at the people who were in the living room,I see 2 tall police officers,talking to my mom. As soon as I entered the door,harder than a storm,all looks were on me. I was feeling uncomfortable at first,but I managed to say something and break the awkwardness.

"What's going on?" I say,and Perrie rubbs my back slowly,to try to calm me down.

"Oh,you must be Jade. I'm detective Robert. Have a sit." The man who I now know his name is Robert said to me.

I did so,but I still felt somehow uncomfortable. The way mom said in that message,it must be something urgent. But the way they are acting now it's the exact opposite.

Perrie was next to me,not letting go of my hand. The two officers were looking at our intertwined fingers in a strange way. Didn't they know that bisexuals actually exist? I actually felt disgusted in that moment,his look was everything but not comfortable with me and Perrie.

"Anybody here wants to tell me what's going on?" I say,looking at them,at my mom,then at the 2 police officers.

"We didn't want to tell you at first,we still think you are a child and this kind of-"

"A child? You know that I can take care of myself,right?" I say,in a more serious way than I intended.

They all looked at me with a 'what the f just happened' look on their face,but I didn't care and I continued speaking.

"The point is..that I didn't came all the way here if it wasn't something important. Mom wouldn't do that just to trick me. So,what's going on?" I ask once again,this time very disappointed of the behaviour of the 2 man in front of me.

I've been through a lot and little do they know about this. I may still keep some things to myself,but I do this only to protect myself from others,or viceversa. But when I felt like there were way too many things in my head,I snapped. I felt sorry about that afterwards,tho.

"Well,Jade. We already know that you haven't seen your dad in months." The other man besides Robert says.

"Dad? What has all of this to do with him?" That was the moment I felt like I really needed those informations that they don't want to tell me for some reason.

"He's missing. Nobody at work or friends from Cardiff has seen or heard from him in a week. You needed to know this,I know how hard it must have been for you and your mother when he left." Robert says this time.

"M-missing?"  Opposite from before,now the words were barely leaving my mouth. I was expecting everything but not something about my dad. He is the most powerful and beautiful person I know. Even if we had our fights when we first came here,I still loved him. How could I not?

"How do you know that?" I managed to say after a minute in which Perrie rubbed my back and the adults around me talked about something I didn't quite understand,I wasn't paying attention either.

"Your mom contacted us. She said that her husband didn't answer the phone in days and she was worried. We called the police in Cardiff and went to his home,but nobody was there. When they asked the neighbours if they knew something,they said that they haven't heard from him in days. So,that's what happened. I'm sorry,Jade." You could cut with a knife the tension in that room. It felt somehow strange to be there,especially after a huge news like this.

"So what are you going to do about this?" I stood up from the sofa,scaring Perrie a little bit. I looked at the two officers and they kindly responded.

"We can't do anything,Jade. Only the police in Cardiff can,unless they decide to call us to help them in the investigation,even if that's not likely." One of them explained to me and I just went back to the sofa.

I didn't know what to say. They were right. Now,the police from London is completely numb and can't really do anything. And this thing keept popping in my mind every damn second.

You can't do anything.
You will live without a father from now on.
You didn't deserve him anyways.

Then those questions,who I was so afraid to answer,even if it all was in my head.

What if he never comes back?
What if he's dead?
What if he decided to leave,and actually leave me and my mom behind? He wouldn't do something like this..
What if he's hiding from something? Or someone?
What if he's in something bad?
What if he's in danger and I can't do anything to help him?

And a lot more of 'what if's invaded my mind. He wasn't dead,I know this. I can feel it. Me and dad had that kind of connection,even if it didn't seem like it from the outside. When he got the job in Cardiff I was acutally very proud of him. I knew that he worked very hard on it and that he deserved it. That's why I felt 'okay' with him leaving.

"Jade,it's almost 11pm,aren't you tired?" Perrie asked me with a soft voice,because mom was already sleeping on the couch,her cheeks were watery,sign that she cried.

I just nodded and she helped me going to my bedroom,even if I wasn't tired at all. I couldn't sleep,knowing that my dad was out there,probably scared,or maybe even unconscious.

I lied in my bed,Perrie was facing me. I tried to look at her,but I was too scared to do so. I didn't know the exact reason,I just wasn't feeling to talk to someone,but Perrie looked at me with those eyes I fell in love with,and smiled.

"Don't leave." I said,grabbing her arm when I noticed that she wanted to leave. She didn't say a thing,but she came closer to me,hugging me with her warm embrace.

I was lucky to have her in my life. Despite all of the fights we had,I felt and I will always feel something towards her.