Shadowhunter stories ~mainly Malec!

Love triangles and Malec -part 10

•Day 3
Alec became increasingly anxious and depressed thinking about his outburst to Magnus. In the heat of the moment thats all he could say, not a moments though went into it. He does love Magnus, he was unsure how anything like that could possibly come out of his mouth.  Alec loved Magnus more than life itself but he had no idea how he could make it up to him. With sentences and apologies flying round Alecs head, he stormed over to Magnus' locker only to find everyone else had bet him to it, clearly in a very... very heated argument.
"I can't even look at you people without seeing the ones who I entrusted my knife to have you stab me in the back with it anyway," Simon spat.
"Let's not be dramatic," Magnus emphasised, while Jace mocked Simons knife metaphor, rattling him up even more. "Ha! Look who's talking, Mr I wear glitter cos i like boys," Simon mocked insensitivity, throwing his hands in the air using air quotations. "Oh look, here your boy comes now," The group turned in Alecs direction, acknowledging his presence. "Not my boy, not anymore," Magnus said putting emphasis on 'my boy'. Alecs face drained of colour as he began to feel nauseous as he thought "did Magnus just break up with me?" The group thought nothing of Magnus' comment, to immersed in their own pain and suffering to care. "Guy i think you all need to take a minute to cool down, we can't lose our friendships over this" Izzy stressed, trying to sew the group back together. Simon shot a smile at her sympathetically; he knew how much it was effecting her and how hard she was trying to help. Their moment didn't last long before Jace whined "Not our fault Simon spiralled everything out of control," Izzy snapped back "why does Simon get all the blame? I do recall you being the one ruining yours and Magnus' relationship with Alec," She smiled, proud of her come back. Magnus huffed obnoxiously, "My dear, Alec managed to do that all by himself,"
"Magnus," Alec glanced at Magnus his eyes filled with sorrow, hurt smeared all over his face. Clary sighed, a tear rolled down her face, all the arguing and hate was getting to her, "It's so hard to pretend you love someone," she paused and looked straight into Simons eyes, "spending everyday with that person, knowing you can't love them the way they want you to but whats even harder," She looked to Jace beside her "is to pretend you don't love someone you really do," Jace pulled her into his embrace as she cried, muffled in his chest. "You guys are so insensitive. Simon is right here! I don't know who you people are anymore," Izzy moaned. Clary watched as Simon dragged her away, too emotionally drained to reply. Jace turned to Alec but he was already gone, chasing after Magnus who was determined not to let him. "Magnus wait... Please!" He shouted repeatedly down the hall, people whispering and staring as he did.  With Alec having longer legs than Magnus it didn't take long for them to be side by side. "Stop," Alec said getting agitated, pulling Magnus to a halt. "What?" Magnus shouted, a bit too loud considering Alec was centre meters away. "I'm so sorry for what i said Magnus, i would never... You were the best thing that ever happened to me,"
"Were?" Magnus questioned,
"Are," Alec corrected, "Ever since i met you, I've known that we were special. That the way we talk and laugh around each other is different than everyone else. That i will never meet anyone i can trust as much as i trust you. And i think people search their whole lives to find what we already have. Don't let me throw that away on one stupid sentence that I didn't even mean. I will never stop loving you," Alec said with so much conviction and affection. Magnus shed a tear, touched by Alecs words. Alec wanted so badly to wipe his cheek but he resisted the urge. "You hurt me Alec," Magnus began, "You hurt me alot. Truthfully? It scares me that something as little as meaningless words can make me so vulnerable, so broken. That power you have over me, it frightens me," Alec was taken back by Magnus' words, expecting him to forgive him, not that. "So this is it?"Alec mumbled, swallowing the gigantic lump in his throat. "For now," Was all the reply he got.