Shadowhunter stories ~mainly Malec!

Learning to let go

Magnus woke up beside Alec, watching as his chest rose and fell in a beautiful rhythm. Magnus couldn't help but stare,taking in all his adorable features. Alec layed still, curled up around Magnus' arm as if clutching him for warmth and support. Hours ago, Magnus' arm went numb, but how could he move Alec when he looked so peaceful...So pure. That was Magnus' problem; he would never be able to let go of Alec. He knew one day Alec would die and he would be all alone again with only memories too painful to reminisce but he couldn't let go. He'd been trying to prepare for years, trying different things from distancing himself from Alec to spending every minute with him to create more memories but in the end non of that mattered. In the end, all that mattered was  that Alec was gone and could never come back. How can one prepare themselves for such pain? How can one simply let go?

Alec ran through Magnus' veins like a poison yet he was the only cure. Throughout Magnus' extensive love life, he had never felt a connection so strong; Alec was apart of him. Was it Alec's faded grey hair or wrinkled face that made Magnus realise time was fleeting?... Or maybe it was the fact Alec had retired from his head of institute duties that hit Magnus? But he knew Alec was fading, he was ready, he was never made to live forever.

In Alec's final days, Magnus was more of a carer to Alec than a lover. The love was still there, it never faded, it was just a little old. When Alec took his final gasp his smooth, withered hands were interlocked with Magnus' , Magnus held back the tears until he knew for sure but then he let out whale because when Alec's heart stopped apart of Magnus' soul went with him. A part only Alec could give back.
Alec died surrounded by love, having lived a long rewarding life with Magnus. In time the pain healed, it never stopped, but the wound got less sore and Magnus realised that all the anguish and grief was worth it knowing Alec grew up happy and hopelessly in love with Magnus; dying the exact same way.