Tell Me Why (A Jayy Von Monroe FanFic; BoTDF)

Chapter 12; "Is It My Fault I..."

After about an hour of hangin' with everyone, I excused myself to Jayy's bunk and asked them to knock only if they needed me so I could get my songs together without anyone else hearing. I already had Serenity's Backlash, so it was one less song that I had to think about. I went to my backpack before heading into Jayy's bunk to grab my notebook, then I sat with my phone, where I had recordings of all my songs, and my notebook and sung along with the songs.

I decided one of them would be Lullaby of The Fallen. It was a darker song I'd written when I'd gotten into one of my weird horror-induced moods where all the things I was thinking were creepy thoughts. It really pushed my upper range and I loved singing it.

For the other one, I wasn't so sure on what I wanted to do. I went into the old AcidWashed notebook from before I'd even thought of the name.

"Perfect," I mumbled under my breath happily. It was one of the first songs I'd written, or, at least, written down. Survive.

I sung through each song twice, once with lyrics and the song playing in my earphones as a refresher, then, after I ran through all three this way, I sang through them all again in the same order without any type of help to make sure I knew them.

I growled under my breath as I stumbled during Survive. I started again and fucked up the same part.

"Dammit!" I slammed my head back into the wall. "Ow, fuck!"

Dahv ran up and opened the curtain. "Hunter? Oh thank God, you're okay."

"Yeah... That was a stupid idea..."

"Why did you slam your head on a wall?"

"I kept fucking up the song and I got frustrated... Sorry Dahv..."

"It's fine, you didn't hurt anyone, besides Jayy, I think he's having a heart attack because I made him stay behind."

"Why?"

"Because if you were hurt and bleeding... Or... worse, then I didn't want him seeing it until he had to, if he had to."

"Right... Well, I'm sorry, but I am okay. Jayy!" He ran up like a dog, excited at being called by their master.

He hugged me the second his mind registered that it was me in front of him. "Thank God..." he mumbled softly in my ear.

"I'm alright, I'm alright. It's fine. I got mad at the song." I chuckled at my own stupid excuse.

"He was scared to death," Dahvie said. "This doesn't surprise me at all."

"I was not!" Jayy said indignantly. He pulled away from me and glared at Dahvie.

"Dude you totally freaked."

"Bullshit!"

"It is 'not' and you know it," Dahvie teased.

Jayy stayed silent, still glaring at Dahvie.

"What?" Dahvie smirked. "You know it's true." Jayy mumbled something under his breath. "Say again?" Dahv teased.

"I know..." Jayy looked down. "Is it my fault I worry about her?" I caught sight of a tear dropping to the floor. "Is it my fault I love her?"

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I know, REEEALLY short chapter. But please don't kill me, I just (literally just this weekend, Saturday to be exact) got into Doctor Who and I watched two episodes instead of one, but I really wanted to get you guys a chapter tonight. (I only just finished S. 1; episode 6 (Darlek) so no spoilers plzzz)

Also, if you guys want to know they lyrics to the songs mentioned, leave a comment letting me know. These songs are 100% mine, as is the name AcidWashed Serenity, (I'm just letting Hunter borrow the name and songs) so I will post one chapter with the lyrics to all the songs I've mentioned (that are mine).

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