Tell Me Why (A Jayy Von Monroe FanFic; BoTDF)

Chapter 24; "I Just Wish You'd Realize You Don't Have To Do It Without Me."

Eventually, the day came where the guys had to go. On the last possible day, Jayy knocked on the door to my room (where I'd spent most of my time and slept three of the four nights we'd been there, all but the first). He came in and sat down gently on the foot of my bed.

"We've gotta get goin' tomorrow morning and, well, um... We wanted to know if you were still gonna...?"

I looked down. "Go?" I finished for him, questioningly. He nodded and I sighed. "Well... I guess I have to now."

He shook his head. "I won't make you."

"Well I can't very well go back to my house can I Jayy?" I growled at him.

He flinched gently. "I didn't mean 'that'... I meant... Well, if you wanted, you could stay here while we're gone. We could leave you what your gonna get paid, I'll pay you for the full tour."

I shook my head. "I don't deserve that."

He sighed. "At least half..."

"I toured for a couple 'weeks' Jayy."

"So? Honey, listen. I wanna set you up for a little while. Let you have some time for you to process this. And then," he took my hand gently, "when we come back... Maybe you'll feel a little better. At least, okay enough to actually talk to me? You're barely glancing in my direction Angel. It's like during that first "month"," he said, making airquotes.

I looked down. "I'm sorry Jayy... It's just... all of this is so fucking hard to process. If I'd've just 'gone and got him' when we first got back, if I'd've just told you 'no, we need to get him so she can't hurt him', he'd be here. 'Alive' Jayy. I'm sorry Jayy... It's just..." I shook my head. "It's nothing, I guess. I'm sorry."

He looked desperately in my eyes. "Hunter, please. Please just don't do 'that'. Don't just shut me out like that. You can't just shrug this off, it's 'hurting' you Hunter. And for good reason."

"Jayy-"

"Baby, your brother just 'died'. I get that you have to grieve." He squeezed my hand tighter. I hadn't remembered he was holding it. I decided to let him, after all, it was hard on him to see me like this. I could tell from how much he wanted me to let him help and talk to him. I thought that maybe I should. "I just wish you'd realize you don't have to do it without me."

I sighed. "I know... Look, I'm trying to work this out myself. If it doesn't work, I'll talk to you okay?"

He nodded. "It doesn't even have to 'be me'. Just 'someone'."

"Okay."

"I'll leave you my number and all the rest of the people from the band." He smirked. "I bet you'll love to talk to Aussie."

I laughed. "He's funny, but that's about it with us. There's a little too much 'us' in the way," I said, squeezing his hand back.

"Thank God." He pecked my cheek. "So, you stayin' here?"

I looked down. Something was telling me to, but I said it anyway. "I don't wanna be alone. Granted, I don't quite wanna get all affectionate as of now, but I'd rather be able to if the urge arrises."

"Kay," he said calmly. "but you're gonna have to bunk with 'someone'."

"Yeah, I remember from the first driving day."

"It's up to you who it is."

I looked down. "If I have to stay in the same bed as 'anyone' Jayy, it's gonna be you."

He smiled. I kissed his cheek, and he put his arm around me and squeezed me right into him, but he let me go just as fast.

"See Jayy, that's what I need, if you can just hug me like that, I'll be chill."

"Okay honey. I will then." He was smiling again. I was glad that I made him feel better. I'd been feeling guilty about ignoring him so much, if only because I knew it'd been hurting him so much. It felt good to talk with him, at least a little bit, and make him smile for me again.

"Maybe it's too soon, but... I love you Hunter."

"I love you too Jayy."

And in that moment, I'd really meant it.

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Ignore the author's note below this if you want, I am long since back from Myrtle Beach. However, I'd like to inform you guys that the next chapter has slight explicit language/scene (nothing actually happens). As this is the case, WattPad has decided to mark chapter 25 private. So click the external link to get to it without following me. Sorry about that!!!

Hey guys, I leave for Myrtle Beach with my girlfriend tonight (I'll be going to her house in about two hours twenty minutes as I write this note) and I won't be back until the 24th. This was next week's chapter, hope you liked it.

Even though sad things are happening, I really like writing this, so I wanted to thank you guys for reading and sticking through it with me when I wasn't doing my job as a writer, all the way up to very recently. I hope I'm doing a little better now though, I'm trying for you guys, and I wanted to say that this story never would've happened or continued without its readers. So thanks guys, I'm glad you were there to get me to write this story and I hope you like my little twists and turns.

I would like to warn you that shit is about to hit the fan here, if you can't already tell by the last line of this chapter. I can't tell you why, but you guys will hate me for how this book ends. Just read the next book, and you'll be less angry with me. I promise. Well...hope.

Either way, see you when I get back! : D

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