I chilled wit dre the rest of the day just talkin to him about everything we been through. It really seemed like he was takin a turn for the better. He even sincerely apologized for kissin that hoe terry. I found my self doin something wit him I never thought would happen. I was really startin to fall for him. After almost a year of being around him I always had love for him, but because I only looked at him in a stereotypical way. I never let my self get to attached and always kept my gaurd up. This time I put it up to late because I had already went over the edge. I just hope he would be waiting at the bottom to catch me instead of letting me fall flat on my ass. We were laying cuddled in the bed and he had his arms wrapped around me sleeping like a baby. I took off his bandage because I wanted to see his scar. It was still kind of fresh and u could see it tryin to clot. I traced my fingers around it gently, and kinda teared up a little. I was mad at my self for being the cause of him commiting such an act. He held me tighter removin his hand from my grasp and kissed my neck lettin me know he was woke.
Dre: Whats wrong bae?
Shawn: Dre im sorry.(i said turning to face him wit tears in my eyes)
Dre: Sorry for what?
Shawn: For sayin all that stuff I said to u yesterday. I just feel so guilty now, and if it wasnt for me u wouldna did this to yourself and...Why r u smilin?(i said irritated)
Dre: U so cute when u worry bae, and u talk too much.
Once again we were sword fighting with our tongues. He was on top of me slowy removin my shirt as well as his own. Then he started to take my pants off, and I finally realized where this was heading. I started to get a little nervous about it and I guess he could tell because he whispered "Relax babe" as he kiss down my stomach. He made his way inbetween my legs as he removed my boxer briefs revealing my juicy ass and fully erect 8" d***k. He started to eat me out licking, and sucking on my inner thighs every so often leaving hickies to mark his territory. His tongue was like a kid and my ass was the playground. Then he moved to my balls suckin on each one individually makin sure not to give either one more attention than the other. I bit my bottom lip to keep from moaning because mimi and there mom were still in the house. That task became even harder when his began to suck on the tip of my d***k. It was so unexpected I jumped at the wonderful sensation that sent chills through my body.
Shawn: Dr..Dre..Oh my god....
I was so speechless and couldnt get my brain to put together a proper sentence to ask him to stop. I tried to push his head away but he grabbed my arms and held em down to my side. He randomly moved from my d***k to my dripping wet hole alternating between the two. Slowly I pulled away still wantin him to stop but loving the overwhelming amounts of pleasure. He grabbed my thighs and pulled me back to him forcefully stickin his tongue as far into my ass as he could. Then he stuck his finger in my hole and I jump from the new feeling as my body tensed up and I once again pulled away.
Shawn: Dre...I dont think im ready for-
Dre: Ssshhhhh
He dove back into my ocean while lookin at me to see my reaction. I was still pulling away but its like the fact that I was running turned him on even more as he pulled me back. Finally I just gave in and threw my head back in exstacy letting out moan after moan. He came back up after what seemed like forever and our lips met. I didnt even notice that he had his pants off until my eyes wandered down to his massive 9 1/2" d***k pointed in my direction. He saw the concern on my face and just smiled as if he knew how scared I was.
Dre: Dont worry bae ima take care of u.
Shawn: Dre..I dont know man.
Dre: Im not gone hurt u bae I promise.
Before I could say another word he kissed me to make me relax. Then he reached over to his night stand and grabbed a condom and some flavor lube. I watched as he rolled it down his d***k and then poured some lube on his hands. He rubbed some on the condom and then between my ass insertin a finger in the process. When I got use to the feeling he put another one in and I let out a loud gasp. Then he took his d***k and ran it up and down my hole preparing me for what was about to follow. A pain shot up my spine as he penetrated my virgin ass with his head. He started to kiss my neck again making me relax as he continued to inch in deeper and deeper.
Shawn: Ummmmmm
Dre: Whats wrong u want me to stop.
Lord knows I wanted to say HELL YEA GET THAT MONSTER OUT OF ME!! I just shook my head no instead. When he was finally all the way in he layed still for a while to let my body adjust. Then he started to take long and deep strokes. The pain was startin to subside and was soon replaced with pleasure. I ran my hands up and down his back diggin my nails into him whenever he would go in too deep. That seemed to only make him go deeper though. I was takin his pain and he was takin mine as he started to pick up the pace. He cuffed my ass cheeks in his masculine hands as he continued to pound my cakes. Then I felt something stirring in my balls and tingle up to the head of my d***k. Theres no way I was about to cum because I hadnt even touched my self aside from him givin me head. To my suprise I bust a very intense nut that had my body quivering as he continued to f***k me harder and faster. Then he pulled out and ripped the condom off and shot his load all over my stomach. He bent down and licked it all up not leaving one drop left. Then he came up to kiss me, and I reluctantly obliged. I didnt know if I should be disgusted because I was now tastin my own nut or turned on because he drunk it all. We just laid there for a while embracing the warmth of eachothers bodies.
Dre: So how was yo first time?(he smiled)
Shawn: It was iight.(i said jokingly)
Dre: Well I guess ima have to put this daddy d***k on u a lil better next time.(he said kissin me)
Finally we got dressed and he drove me back to my apartment givin me a peck before I got out the car. I was just about to close the door when he called my name.
Dre: Shawn!
Shawn: Huh?
Dre: I love you.(he smiled)
Shawn: I love u too Dre.(i said blushin)
I closed the door and made my way to my apartment turning around smiling at him before I went inside. The first thing I did was take a shower and reflect on everything that had just happened. Not only was I actually in love with the one person i've been trying not to fall for, for over a year, but he also just took my virginity. Something inside of me told me that I had just ultimately set my self up for the worst heart break I think i'll ever experience in my life. Then courtney popped into my head and I started to feel guilty. I havent known him that long and were not together, but I really liked him. He's always so open with me and not afraid to show his affection for me in front of other people. On top of all of this I realized that I did the one thing I hate most, I lied to him. I told him that I was just going to dre's house to talk to him, and I ended up doin that plus more. This was the one time that I kicked my self in the ass for not giving him my number. I got out the shower and looked at my self in the mirror, and I must admit I was glowing. Then I noticed I had hickies all over my neck, damn. This was the one thing I hated about being so fair skinned. I could get pinched and it would look like a big ass bruise. Dre really made sure he let it be known that I was takin and im sure everybody would get the message. I couldnt help but laugh to my self because I knew he did it so that courtney would see them. I went to sleep feeling conflicted about my emotions, and what my next steps were going to be. I wanted to love Dre and give him my all, but deep down I was afraid too completely let my gaurd down. He seemed sincere enough in the last couple hours we had just spent together, but I know Dre. Then on the other hand I wanted to get to know more about Courtney and I wanted to explore the possibilities of where our relationship could go. After all we have just met and theres a lot more I feel like he has to offer and show me. I went to sleep with a lot on my brain, and woke up just the same. I got ready for school only thinkin about how Dre would act now, and how I would explain what happened to Courtney. From his reaction yesterday just from me sayin I was goin to see Dre I know he'll be pissed. I just hope he can forgive me because I dont want to lose him before I even have a chance to call him mine. I walked to the bus stop and as usual Que was waiting there for me.
Que: Damn nigga what happened to yo neck it look like u got attacked by mosquitoes.(he laughed)
Shawn: Umm somethin like that.(i laughed)
Que: So how Dre doin?
Shawn: He doin good actually. Still a a***e so he'll be alright.(i laughed)
Que: U f***ked him didnt u.
Shawn: What!?
I just looked at him shocked he asked that question. Damn was it that obvious?
