When I was done tellin him what happened. He started to tell me how he had been through a similar situation. He was to my suprise out as well. His mom was ok with it but his dad was another story. Eventually his parents got a divorce and he felt like it was his fault. The convo started to get too emotional so I changed the subject.
Shawn: Ok enough about all the negative stuff. Tell me about yo self why is yo sexy ass single?
Court: Awww so u think im sexy?(he smiled)
Shawn: Just a lil bit.(i laughed)
Court: I think u sexier though, but honestly because dudes play to many games. They hoe's, selfish, childish, insecure, and always want u to be on some downlow type s***t. I hate hidin how I feel about somebody I like or love and promised my self I would never do that s***t again.
Shawn: I can definately relate.(i smiled)
Court: So what about u?
Shawn: Well actually dre was the first dude I ever messed around wit. Until like a week agao i've been single.
Court: Thats hard to believe that u only messed around wit one dude.
Shawn: So u sayin I look like a hoe?(i said raising my eyebrow)
Court: Nah im not sayin that.(he laughed) U just a cute dude and its shockin to know u only been f***kin one person.
Shawn: I aint been f***kin nobody im a virgin.
Court: Forreal!(he said cheesin)
Shawn: Dont get no ideas nigga I been goin this long and I doubt thats gone change.
Court: I aint even said nothin.(he laughed)
He walked me to class and before I could go in he pulled me back into another hug. I loved being held by him and his scent was just so intoxicating. I pulled away before I let him f***k me right in the hallway and he gave me another peck on the lips before walkin off sayin "See u later shawty" wit that beautiful smile. I walked in the class room on cloud nine oblivious to everybody and everything around me. I sat down and all I could think about was courtney, until I got tapped on my shoulder anyway. I turned around to Tevon lookin a lil irritated for what ever reason.
Tevon: Wussup shawn.
Shawn: Whats good tevo.
Tevon: So wussup wit u and ole boy?
Shawn: Umm..we just friends why?
Tevon: No reason, but look im havin this back to school party on friday and I wanted to see if u wanna come.
If I didnt know any better I would say this nigga was jealous.
Shawn: Uhh..yea thats koo. What time do it start?
Tevon: At 8 o'clock, just give me yo number so I can text u the address and stuff.
Shawn: Ok thats koo, who all gone be there?
Tevon: Well of course most of the school.(he laughed) U betta come man or ima come searchin for yo ass.
Shawn: Im gone come dude chill out.
Between courtney and tevon I didnt even notice that mimi wasnt in class until she walked through the door. She sat down without even lookin at me and it seemed like she was mad about somethin. I asked her was she ok but I swear she ignored me. So I tapped her on her shoulder and she turned around fast as hell.
MiMi: What!
Shawn: What the hell wrong wit u?
MiMi: U should f***kin know cuz its yo damn fault.
Shawn: What u talkin about?
MiMi: Dre tried to kill his self lastnight.
Shawn: Are u serious, wait how is that my fault.
MiMi: He told me about yall arguement lastnight when he came home. He was cryin and s***t talkin about how bad he felt. To top it off he said he told u that he love u, and yo ass just flipped out on him. What kind of s***t is that shawn?
Shawn: I mean yea we argued but it wasnt nothin he shouldve did all of that for. I was just being honest wit him, and u know how yo brother is he tried to f***kin play me like a fool. What the hell was I suppose to just keep lookin stupid for his ass.
MiMi: I know my brother aint a damn saint but he poured his heart out to u and u f***kin stomped on it. Then u blamed him for yo own personal problems and made him feel like it was his fault. I didnt know u was grimey like that man thats some fouls s***t.
Shawn: MiMi are u f***kin serious? I can understand u being mad but-
She threw her hand up signaling me to stop talkin. I dont believe this b***h really just blamed me for his dumb ass tryna commit suicide. I guess that explains why I couldnt find him earlier. I started to feel guilty as hell for our arguement lastnight. Never in a million years did I see dre as the type to try and kill his self. Maybe there is a different side to him after all and he really was tryna show it to me yesterday. All of my classes flew by and before I knew it, it was lunch time. MiMi was still pissed at me so I just gave her some space. I went an sat down by Que and the rest of my boys.
Que: Aye did u hear about dre?
Shawn: Yea, MiMi told me what happened and then blamed me for it.
Que: Dont let her get to u she just mad right now she'll cool off.
Shawn: I dont believe he did that s***t though man. Maybe he was forreal when he told me all that stuff, and I just brushed him off.
Que: Dont blame yo self man its not yo fault.
Shawn: Ive been tellin my self that all day but it dont seem to be workin.
We spent the rest of the hour talkin about dre, and if I should go see him or not. I finally decided that I would since he did this because of me. The rest of school went by slow as hell, but it was finally over. I went to talk to my coach and tell him I wouldnt be stayin at practice today. I made up a lie about me not feelin to good and he accepted it no questions asked. Just when I was about to leave courtney up to me and wrapped his arms around my waist from behind me.
Court: Where u goin shawty?
Shawn: Im goin to see dre.
Court: Oh(he said lettin me go)
Shawn: Look its not like that. He tried to kill his self lastnight, and I feel guilty thats the only reason im goin over there.
Court: U aint gotta explain yo self to me shawty we aint together.
Shawn: Courtney dont act like that its really nothin like that.
Courtney: Nah I understand but look I gotta get back.
He ran off wit out even sayin bye. I just shook it off and got on the bus to go to dre house. When I finally got there mimi answered the door.
MiMi: What u doin here?
Shawn: I came to see dre why u think.
MiMi: He down stairs but if u gone do more harm than good dont bother him dude.
Shawn: Mimi stop trippin on me im gettin tired of yo f***kin attitude.
I walked pass her and spoke to Dre's mom then made my way down stairs. He was sittin on the couch watchin t.v. He had a bandage on his wrist so im guessin he tried to cut his self. I wasnt really able to get the story from mimi since she was actin like a b***h all day. He looked up and saw me and didnt even speak. I went and sat down next to him and he just kept lookin straight ahead. Its obvious he was going to say a damn thing to me, I guess his feeling were still hurt.
Shawn: Dre im sorry.
Dre: For what.(he said still not lookin at me)
Shawn: For what I said yesterday, it was wrong for me to blame u for my personal problems.
Dre: Dont worry about it, its not a big deal.
Shawn: I really am sorry dre I didnt mean to make u feel-
Dre: I said its koo.
Shawn: So what did u do?
Dre: I tried to cut my self, but mimi snatched the knife from me before I could. Its just a flesh wound thats all.
Shawn: I dont believe yo ass did some crazy s***t like that.
Dre: People do crazy s***t when they in love.
The whole time he was talkin to me he never not once looked at me. I grabbed him by his face to make him look me in the eyes.
Shawn: Well please dont do no more stupid stuff like that.
Dre: Iight man.
Shawn: Promise me.
Dre: Ok shawn damn.(he sighed)
I dont know what came over me but I leaned in and kissed him. He didnt fight me as I force my tongue in his mouth and began to wrestle wit his. He pushed me back on the couch and got on top of me. He started licking, suckin, and kissing my neck. It felt so good I couldnt help but moan even though I didnt want to because mimi was upstairs. He stopped and looked me in the eyes while biting his bottom lip, and grindin our d***ks together. Once again something came over me and before I knew it the words slipped out of my mouth.
Shawn: I love u Dre.
He just smiled and leaned back down into another passionate kiss.
