I was staring at her like she had just spoke a different language to me. Breakin my gaze I looked back at the man, and I could definately see the resemblance. He had the same jet black hair, and piercing gray eyes. Im not gone stunt for a white dude my daddy was FINE!! He had on a white dress shirt that hugged him just right showing his body, and some slacks that showed off his ass. He was masculine but something just wasnt right about him though, is my dad gay? The second I asked that question he came over to us and asked if he could help us with something.
Jason: Hey fellas how yall doing? Im guessin this is gone be a couples picture.(he said smilin lookin at me and Que still holdin hands)
Before I could find the courage to speak to him he noticed my mother, and his entire demeanor changed.
Jason: Dar..Darlene?
Ms.Williams: Hello Jason.(she said with an attitude)
Jason: Oh my god how are u? I havent seen u in almost 20 years I thought u moved.
Ms.Williams: Im just in town visiting some family.
I looked at her confused, and I was about to figure out what the f***k he was talkin about.
Shawn: Ma what are u talkin about u never moved?
Jason's attention shifted back to me as he studied my face, and then he looked back at my mother with obvious anger.
Jason: So is this your son Darlene?(he said raising his eyebrow)
Ms.Williams: Yes, yes he is MY son Jason!
Jason: How old are u lil man?
Shawn: Umm, im about to be 19.
When I said that I could see the rage in his face as he turned back to my mother.
Jason: U selfish b***h! How could u let him grow up all of this time without tellin me! I thought u got a f***kin abortion!?(he yelled)
Ms.Williams: I did what was necessary to protect my son from yo ass cuz I didnt want him to turn out like u!!(she yelled back)
They were goin back, and forth arguing causing people to stop as mall security came to check everything out. Once the security got there they asked my mom to leave, and for Jason to get back to work or leave the building as well. She stormed off, and I was right on her trail. I had a lot of questions and this b***h had the answers. Que was just quiet the entire time in shock from the situation, but never left my side.
Shawn: Ma...MA WAIT UP!!
Ms.Williams: Shawn I know u got a lot of questions, but right now is not a good time baby.(she said opening the door but I closed it back)
Shawn: NO!! Now is the perfect time!! How many f***kin secrets do u have in that f***ked up head of yours!? Why would u let me grow up without ever gettin the chance to know my dad!? What right did u have to keep him away from me, and vice versa!?
Ms.Williams: I did what I thought was the right thing to do. I have done the best that I can to raise u right, but u still turned out like-(she cut her sentence short)
Shawn: Like what!! What did I turn out to be like ma!? Im not some thug ass nigga out on the streets knockin b***hes off for some cash!!
Ms.Williams: I was just tryna protect u!!
Shawn: Protect me from what!?
Ms.Williams: From him!!
Shawn: HE'S MY DAD WHY WOULD I NEED TO BE PROTECTED FROM HIM!!??
Ms.Williams: BECAUSE HE A F***KIN F***G JUST LIKE-(she cut her sentence short again)
Shawn: Like me.....
Ms.Williams: I didnt mean it like that shawn.
Shawn: U will never be able to accept the fact that im gay will u?
Ms.Williams: I CAUGHT HIM IN OUR BED WITH ANOTHER MAN SHAWN!! How the f***k do u think I was suppose to feel people like u, and I had just found out I was pregnant!?(she said cryin)
Shawn: Tell me the truth instead of lyin to me all the time. U told me he was married, and didnt want anything to do with us. Now it turns out that u did him just like me all because of his sexuality. U made me hate him because u painted this image of him being some dead beat. He was right u are a selfish b***h, but thats not all. Your a manipulative, sneaky, lying, conniving woman. How can u always prance around claimin to be a child of GOD, and yo ass aint nothin but the damn devil!! Its koo though cuz u aint gotta worry about me or people like me no damn more!!
After sayin that I stormed off back into the mall wit Que behind me callin my name.
Que: Bae..BAE!!
Shawn: WHAT!?
He pulled me into a hug and just held me shifting from side to side. Its crazy how he knew exactly what to do for me to calm down. He kiss me on the forehead before speaking in a soft voice.
Que: Bae we can leave if u want.
Shawn: No, I wanna talk to him. Beside we still aint took our pictures yet.(i smiled)
He smiled back at me, and gave me a peck on the lips before grabbin my hand leadin me back inside. We got back to the place where we planned on takin our pictures, and luckily Jason was still there. When he saw us he told one of his colleague's to take over for him as he walked towards us.
Jason: Im sorry about that lil man. I swear to god I never knew anything about none of this. This is a lot to wrap my head around and I dont wanna sound stupid for askin, but whats your name?
Shawn: Just call me Shawn, Jason right.
Jason: Yea, so do u wanna go talk about this
Shawn: Of course I do, but first things first. I came here to take pictures with my baby.(i said smilin lookin at Que and he smiled back)
Jason: Right this way gentleman.(he smiled)
Jason took some bomb ass pics of me, and Que. I was so geeked about the pictures that I kinds forgot about the situation at hand. After we were done we exchanged numbers, and I gave him my address. He made plans with us for the weekend by inviting me and Que to dinner with him, and his partner. I left the mall with a lot on my mind, and on my heart. Jason was right when he said that this was a lot to wrap his head around. This new found part of my life really had me thrown for a f***kin loop. I started to think about my mama, and how mad I was with her for once again tryna control happens in my life. Then I started to feel bad for a lot of the stuff that I said to her out of anger, but I meant it and it was all true. The ride back to the house was quiet as held as I looked out the window consumed by my thoughts. Que grabbed my hand lookin over at me periodically while driving.
Que: Bae u good?
Shawn: Yea, just a lot on my mind. Ima be iight though u know I thug.(i smiled)
Que: More like a wanna be thug.(he laughed)
Shawn: F***k u punk.
Que: Im just playin boo. So u gone meet yo dad for dinner this weekend?
Shawn: Is that really a question u gotta ask?(i chuckled)
Que: I guess I shouldve known the answer to that.(he smiled)
Shawn: The question is are u gonna come with me?
Que: I wouldnt miss it for the world boo.
Shawn: I love u.
Que: I love u too boo. (he said leaning over to kiss me)
