The closer she got to me the more I braced myself for a slap to the face. By time she had got to me and I snapped out of it, it was to late. She didnt do any of the negative things I picture though. Actually she pulled me into a tight hug, and left me looking confused wit my hands still at my side starin at Court. Finally she pulled back and looked at me for a second then said "sorry" and walked off. I didnt know what to think or how to process the situation so I said bye to everybody then left. The next couple of weeks had went by pretty smooth minus certain things. My mom started calling me tryna rekindle some kind of relationship, but I was over her at this point. Dont get me wrong a part of me still misses her, and maybe one day i'll forgive her but it wont be anytime soon. Doug on the other hand is like the father I never had. He drops my sister off wit me all the time, and I even visit her whenever I can. The real shocker is how close me, and Noah have gotten. He's really pretty cool, and im startin to see why court gets along wit him. Now as far as my love life goes im really stuck between a rock and a hard place. Court is still my baby, but now Que, Tevon, and even Dre are startin to make things kinda complicated for me. I havent cheated on Court, and I dont plan on it. Its just that their all coming on really strong now, and im startin to get torn about what, and who I really want. See im the type of person that has always hated love triangles, and i've tried to avoid them at all cost. I proud to say that I have accomplished that, but what I didnt think to avoid was a love hexagon. Now I know a lot of yall prolly like "hexagon means six". Well theres another person thats been slowly, but surely makin their marks on me. I've been tryna fight all of these emotions off for a while now, but they all have finally over powered me in more ways than one. Courtney was out of town to go back to his hometown for a family reunion which just makes a bad situation worse. He asked me if I wanted to go, but I declined the offer, damn I regret it. Being the person he is though he didnt trip, and just left me the keys to his car while he was gone. Even though I didnt drive it at all it was just the thought that meant the most to me, and one of the many reasons I loved him. I got to school ,and as soon as I walked through the door Tevon was once again all over me. See he had a secret agenda because he knew Court was out of town. Ive been tryin my best to avoid him, but he asks me to chill wit him damn near everyday.
Tevon: Wussup bro.(he smiled)
Shawn: Hey tevon.
Tevon: So when u gone stop playin a nigga and just chill wit me.
Shawn: I told u I dont think thats a good idea.
Tevon: Look I know u wit Courtney, and I respect that. I just want the chance to have some one on one. It aint never been just me, and u since the day at my party which I still apologize for even now.
Shawn: I know u didnt mean it, and thats koo I just dont think it would be a good idea.
Tevon: Please.(he said wit puppy dog eyes as he pulled me close)
I looked at him for a while pondering on what my answer would be. I have to say his determination was a turn on, and he was really startin to wear me down. Finally after stayin silent for about 3 minutes I sighed.
Shawn: Ok.
Tevon: What was that?(he smiled)
Shawn: I said ok nigga.(i laughed)
Tevon: Iight. Well just ride wit me when school get out u didnt drive did u?
Shawn: Nah u know I dont drive his car like that.
Tevon: Ok koo, so its a date.
Shawn: Wait wh-
He gave me a peck on the lips that cut me off leavin me stuned, but brought a smile to my face also. I just shook my head and went to class tryna wrap my mind around what I had just got myself into. All I could think about was how Court would kill me if he found out. I spent the rest of the period talkin to MiMi about random stuff just laughin. We were actually on better terms now than we were before the fall out between me, and Dre. Lunch hour came around and I sat at the table wit Que, and his boys. Lately Que has been comin on pretty strong his self, and its been harder to ignore the fact that I feel the same way about him. One day I was chillin wit him, and we actually almost had sex until his mom burst in the room. We both jumped off of eachother instantly, and a good thing too because angie wasnt too far behind her. Ever since then we been weird around eachother becuase of all the emotions and sexual tension.
Que: Wussup dawg.
Shawn: Whats good Que.(i said sittin down)
Que: Aye can I talk to u for a second.(he said gettin up signaling me to follow him)
Shawn: Umm sure.
We went outside, and just started walkin around the school.
Shawn: So wussup?
Que: Look I know u wit Courtney, but I cant keep doin this to myself. I hate to put u in this situation, but I need to know if im gone be waitin forever.
Shawn: I understand how u feel, and where u comin from. The thing is I really just dont know. It would be wrong for me to just drop Courtney, and he aint did nothin wrong.
Que: I know...and I know I told u i'll wait as long as it takes, but this s***t is killing me man. I cant keep my life paused waitin on something that might never happen.
Shawn: I know, and its not fair for me to expect u too. Maybe u should start talkin to other people.
Que: I DONT WANNA TALK TO OTHER F***KIN PEOPLE SHAWN!!(he yelled gettin teary eyed)
Shawn: Que...
Que: Im sorry for blowin up on u like that I ju-
I cut him off as I walked up to him givin him the most passion filled kissed I could. We had been walkin around the school so nobody could see us as we locked lips. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer into him. Finally I broke the kiss, and looked into his eyes as I caressed his cheek.
Shawn: Que I love u wit all my heart, but I dont want u to hate me for being in love wit somebody else too. I just cant choose right now.(i said tryin not to cry)
Que: I could never hate u bae, but i cant keep waitin either. Im sorry for makin u cry, and puttin all this pressure on u. I need to know but maybe right now aint the best time to talk about it...I love u.
Shawn: I love u too.
We spent the rest of lunch hour just talkin about whatever to get away from the emotional topic. Just when I thought the day couldnt get any more complicated than it did, I ran into Dre. After the fight wit him, and Court I started back talkin to him on the low. At first it was only because I felt like Courtney was sneakin around so I was gone play the game wit him. Then Noah told me otherwise which made me feel like s***t afterwards.
Flashback>>>>>
When Court left to go to the bathroom it was the perfect time for me to confront this nigga.
Shawn: So Noah is there anything I should know about?
Noah: What u mean?
Shawn: I mean like are u and Court f***kin around.
Noah: Is that why u came over here?
Shawn: Honestly yes. I been wit him long enough to know when his ass is lyin, and everytime I ask him about it he hesitates to answer. So what happened between yall?(i said irritated)
Noah: Look girl...Im sorry...Look boy, true enough he's my ex, but nothing happened between us. Nah im not gone stunt a b***h was on some grimey s***t, but he shut it down real quick. I would always push up on him throwin this p***y at him left and right, but he just wasnt goin. At first I would always be real s***tty about it because I couldnt understand what the f***k was so special about yo ass. I can be real wit my s***t and admit that I was jealous, but now I see why he acts like that.
Shawn: What u mean?
Noah: Shawn u cool as hell and thats real T. U a sweet person, and I can see why NeNe so stuck on u. Hell I would be too if u was my dude.
Shawn: Thanks.(i laughed) So nothing happened?
Noah: Nothin at all boo, I promise.(he smiled)
Nah I dont know if it was the liquor or what but me and Noah were sittin close as hell to eachother. I have to admit dude was a lil cutie too. He was my height maybe a lil shorter with the same sexy skin tone as Tevon. He had some good hair, and a nice ass too that jiggled in them pajama pants. We were starin at eachother for a while and started to lean forward until our lips met. Then we heard the bathroom door open, and jumped back away from eachother as courtney walked in the room. Although we still talk neither one of us ever brought that up again, but we were like the best of friends now so its no biggie..right? We were drunk anyway so i just dismissed it as a drunk moment never to be spoken off***gain, and thats what it turned out to be.
End Flashback>>>>>
But since then I never stopped talkin to Dre, and the person I fell in love wit had started to return. I know he prolly just doin all of this s***t to get me back, but he would do lil s***t like text me he love me for no reason at all. Then he even gave me the money for breakin up all my s***t when we fell out that one time. Call me stupid, but everybody has a soft spot for their first love, and anybody who says otherwise is lyin.
