I couldnt believe my eyes, but more so I couldnt believe my dumb ass forgot I gave him a key to my apartment. I had a headache from cryin lastnight and him yellin at me was only makin it ten times worse. Courtney had woke up from all the screaming and looked more suprised than I was.
Dre: WHAT THE F***K IS THIS SHAWN!?
Shawn: Can u please stop yellin Dre damn! Its not what it looks like so calm down.
Dre: Not what it looks like!! It looks like my boyfriend all wrapped up wit another nigga, and u thought I was gone be the one to f***k this up and break yo heart. I cant believe how f***kin selfish yo b***h ass can be sometimes!!
Court: Hold on wait, what he mean boyfriend? Shawn u go wit him because last time I check u said yall were just friends.
Shawn: Dre im not selfish, and courtney thats what I was tryna tell u yesterday.
Dre: So thats the reason u wouldnt let me pick u up from school because u was wit this nigga!?
Court: So u lied to me.(he said gettin out the bed)
Shawn: Oh my god will both of yall calm down please!! Dre I went wit courtney yesterday to tell him about us. Court I tried to tell u but stuff kept happening and then the whole thing wit my mom just got me side tracked.
Dre: Man I was really startin to change for u shawn but it turns out u just another hoe like all them other b***hes I f***k wit!!
Shawn: Hold on Dre that not fair I was gonna tell him.
Dre: Man f***k that s***t yo.(he stormed out the apartment)
Court: So u really do go wit him?
Shawn: Courtney im sorry. I kept tryna tell u but u were just so happy and I didnt wanna hurt yo feelings. Then everybody kept sayin how much u liked me and that just made it harder for me to tell u.
Court: So u lied to me just so u wouldnt hurt my feelings, but u ended up breakin my heart.
Shawn: Courtney I swear im sorry I was just so confused, and I didnt know how to tell u.
Court: Well I just wanna know one thing, did u f***k dre?
Shawn:........
Court: So u did huh, so u werent a virgin then?
Shawn: I was until a couple days ago when I went to check on Dre. I didnt plan on doin nothin wit him it just happened.
Court: U a f***kin liar fam u told me that nothin was gonna f***kin happen. Ya boyfriend was right u are a hoe.(he said walkin out the door)
Shawn: Courtney wait its not like that.(i tried to grab him)
Court: F***k off me shawty.
He snatch away from me and got in his car to leave. I was sittin there once again lookin stupid. This is why I hate lying, the s***t always blows up in yo face. I was gonna tell him though, but I honestly got distracted. How could I be so f***kin stupid to forget I gave Dre a key. I closed the door and sat on the couch once again cryin feeling unwanted and alone. Then I got a knock on my door and it was Que.
Que: What just happened dude Dre and Courtney just left mad as hell.
Shawn: Im what happened, I f***ked up Que.(i started to cry)
Que: Damn shawn, what happened to keepin it real man I aint never known u to be a player.
Shawn: Thats the thing it wasnt like that. I was gone tell courtney about me and dre at his moms party lastnight. Then Darlene was there and we got into a big fight and I forgot about it.
Que: Darlene, u mean yo mama?
Shawn: That b***h aint my mama!!
Que: Whoa what happened?
Shawn: She got married and I got a little sister but she didnt even tell nobody about me. I called her a b***h and she slapped me so I hit her ass back.
Que: Damn shawn thats a lot. Look come on and get dressed u not stayin in this house all depressed and s***t get ready for school.
Shawn: I dont wanna go to school.
Que: I wasnt askin u now go get ready.
I didnt bother arguin wit him because he always won. Hell if I didnt do what he said he wouldve started dressin me his self. When I was finally ready we got on the bus and headed to school. Que was tryin his hardest to cheer me up crackin jokes and s***t but I just wasnt feeling it. Not only did I just get dumped by my mom, but now Dre and Courtney too. Even though technically we werent together it still felt like he dumped me. I went in the lunch room to get some breakfast and sat down. I wasnt really hungry so I just played in my food thinkin to my self about what just happened. Then I saw MiMi comin towards me wit this look on her face and I already knew where this was goin.
MiMi: What the f***k did u do to my brother shawn.
Shawn: MiMi please just leave me alone. I got chewed out enough this morning, and I really dont need to here it from u too.
She saw the pain on my face, and that made her calm down a little. She sat down across from me still muggin the s***t out of me and finally broke the silence.
MiMi: What happened this time shawn?
Shawn: I went to chill wit courtney yesterday because he ask me to come to his moms birthday party. I went but my intentions where to tell him that I was wit Dre and we could only be friends. Then my mom showed up at the party and things got outta control we fought eachother and courtney ended up takin me home. I was cryin and s***t from the fight so he just stayed to comfort me and thats all, nothing happened.
MiMi: I believe u but u shouldve just told him the truth man, and this all couldve been avoided.
Shawn: I know, but it dont matter no more no way. Im just a f***k up and dont nobody want me. First my mom because of me being gay, then Dre because he think I cheated on him, and now courtney cuz he think im a liar.
I just started cryin and she came around to give me a hug. We walked to class together but most of her questions where about my mom. When we got in the class room tevon looked like he wanted to f***k wit me as usual but he saw the sadness in my eyes.
Tevon: Wussup shawn u good?
Shawn: Not really its just a lot goin on today im cool though.(i lied)
Tevon: Oh ok so u still comin to my party today right?
Shawn: To be honest im prolly gone pass this time tevo. I really dont feel like being around a lot of people today.
Tevon: Aawww come on yo u said u would come and I been houndin u about it every day. U cant bail on me at the last minute G.
Shawn: Yea I know bu-
Tevon: But nothin, ima pick u up before the party and u better be ready it starts at 8.
He dont know how much his aggression turned me on. After all maybe I needed to get out of the house after the way my day been goin.
Shawn: Iight man i'll text u my address just let me know when u gone be on yo way.
He didnt even reply all he did was smile. On lunch hour I was goin to sit wit Que, but I saw courtney at the table. I froze in my tracks and turned around to go the other way until Que saw me and called me over, damn. I reluctantly turned around and dapped up everybody at the table except courtney. I didnt really participate in the conversations they held or nothin. Hell I didnt even face them really I sat there wit my head down lookin up occasionally to courtney staring a hole in me face. I could tell he was still pissed and hurt from this morning but I couldnt read which emotion he felt more.
Que: So yall goin to tevon party later tonight.
Will: Hell yea I think its gone be hype.
James: Yea me too, plus its gone be hella b***hes there.
Que: Hell yea, shawn u goin?
Shawn: Uh, yea I am.
Que: How u gettin there?
Shawn: Tevon gone pick me up.
When I said that courtney glared at me like he wanted to snap. I just turned my head because I couldnt look him in those same beautiful eyes that once looked at me wit so much love. Now they were the same eyes that looked at me as nothin more than a liar and a hoe.
Que: Aw ok u think he would mind pickin me up along the way.
Shawn: Ill ask him.
Que: Court u goin?
Court: Yea ill go. I might as well since everybody else is.
He said that lookin dead at me. Que looked back and forth between us and then continued the conversation. I got up to leave because I didnt want to keep sittin by courtney knowin he hated me. I walked outside and decided to call Dre since I hadnt talked to him.
Dre: What the f***k u want man?
Shawn: Dre look im sorry I swear it wasnt what it looked like.
Dre: If thats all u called me to say then ok but im busy right now.
Shawn: Look I know u mad at me and I dont blame u. I cant make u believe me but I just want u to know that I love u and I would never cheat on u. U should know that im not that kind of person.
Girl in the background: Dre get off the phone baby.
Shawn: Who the f***k is that?
Dre: Man I gotta go, and I dont think this workin out for me no more.
Shawn: Are u serious!? I want u to think about this s***t before u do something u gone regret Dre NOTHING HAPPENED BETWEEN ME AND COURTNEY!!
Dre: Ill talk to u later shawn.
Shawn: Dre..DRE!!
I dont believe that mutha f***ka. He was really about to f***k some b***h while im on the phone tryna get him back. I knew I was settin my self up for heart break by finally lettin that nigga in. Its all my fault anyway though so I can only be mad at myself. I started to tear up again but I wouldnt let myself cry anymore. F***k it, everybody wanna turn they back on so its whatever I dont need them.
