I stood there for a while, but it seemed like forever. For a second I thought that this had to be some kind of dream tryna send me a subliminal message, but I wasnt that lucky. Court broke the silence when he said Noah's name almost as shocked as I was.
Court: Noah!
Noah: Hey yall.(he smiled)
Tevon: Yall know eachother?
Court: Yea somethin like that, but thats shawn new best friend.
Tevon: Damn shawn u know my boo?
Shawn: I thought I did.(i mumbled)
Tevon: Huh?
Shawn: Aw uh, yea he koo.
Noah: So what yall doin here.
Shawn: We came here to get to know his new boo and tell him how foul this nigga is, but since its u I guess its no big deal.(i said givin him the look of death)
Noah: Thats cute.(he laughed)
Court: Ok, whats goin on?
Shawn: Nothin, why u ask that bae?
Court: Just checkin.
Tevon: Ok well since yall already know eachother thats out the way. So what yall wanna do?
Noah: We could go out to eat or something.
Shawn: Nah we aint gotta waste no money. Come on "bestie" lets go cook for them.
I dragged him into the kitchen before he had a chance to decline. Courtney, and Tevon were left in the living room lookin confused. When we got to the kitchen I choked him up against the counter.
Shawn: What the f***k is this!(i said through my teeth)
Noah: Let me go.(he said stugglin to get free)
Shawn: U aint goin no where b***h. Now what kinda f***kin game are u playin. U told yo ass all about tevon, and everybody else for that matter. Yet u decide to start talkin to this nigga while u f***kin me, and u know how I feel about him!
I slammed him against the counter then let him go as he gasped for air. I was so f***kin mad I was pacin back and forth in front of him waitin for an answer. Then I stopped in front of him, and folded my arms tappin my foot.
Shawn: Well, nigga im listenin.
Noah: B***h dont get mad cuz I snatched up a nigga that aint yours. Besides im doin u a favor, and I always had a crush on Tevon. I didnt even know he was gay until u told me since we go to different schools.
Shawn: But I told u that I like him!
Noah: Cry me a river girl, and beside yo ass gotta man.
Shawn: U a grimey ass mutha f***ka.
Noah: Ill be that, but dont be up in here tryna f***k my s***t up because yours already f***ked up. U and Courtney aint nothin but some damn liars. Me and him got something good goin on so let it stay that way.
Shawn: So u f***k up my relationship, and expect me not to do the same s***t to u!
Noah: I didnt f***k s***t up, I just got f***ked its a difference. Both of yall knew what yall was doin, and u kept comin back if im not mistaken honey. Yo relationship was f***ked up before I ever came into the picture.
Shawn: I swear u aint nothin but another messy ass back stabbin f***g. I regret ever stickin my d***k in u cuz u aint nothin but a hoe.
Court: Nah u the hoe.
We both jumped when we heard the all too familiar voice. I turned to see him lookin from me to Noah wit rage in his eyes. I dont think ive ever seen him this mad not even when he fought Dre.
Court: Shawn lets go.(he said calmly)
Shawn: Bae I-
Court: I said lets go!
I didnt say anything else as I slowly walked towards him. He went straight pass me, and headed for Noah. At this point I was scared for not only myself, but suprisingly him as well. I know I cant fight court so noah dont stand a damn chance. I was relieved when he didnt hit him though he just started talkin calmly.
Court: Stay away from him, and me. This is why I broke up wit yo ass in the first place. U play all these f***kin mind games, and have all these secret agendas.
Noah: Nigga please! Dont be gettin mad at me because u simple b***hes cant take. I couldnt have u, so I got him. Then in the process he led me to somethin better than both of yall. Now take yo hoe, and step because my job is done.
Shawn: So u planned all this s***t out the whole time!?
Noah: Duh b***h! What, u thought I was just gone let u have yo cake and eat it too. Nah boo I wanted a slice myself, and I knew u wouldnt give it to me so I took it.
Tevon walked in lookin a combination of hurt, and pissed off.
Tevon: So all this time u been usin him to get to me, AND u been f***kin him.(he said lookin at Noah)
Noah: Baby its not li-
Tevon: All of yall get the f***k out my house. I knew this gay s***t wasnt nothin but trouble.
Noah: Dont let them come between us boo.
Tevon: I SAID GET OUT!!
Noah stormed out like a lil b***h cryin, and stompin as he left. I started to follow suite until I was snatched up by Tevon who looked like he was about to cry, but his pride wouldnt let him.
Tevon: I just want u to know that im done wit yo ass straight up. Dont even look my damn way no more and i'll return the favor.
His words stung me im not gone lie, and it hurt even more because I knew he was serious. I started to speak but Court flung his hand off of me then got inbetween us. To be honest I was shocked that he would even still stand up for me.
Court: Dont put yo f***kin hands on him fam. He get the picture, and we bout to bounce. Come on shawn.(he said pushin me towards the door)
I looked back at Tevon who made instant eye contact wit me, and mouthed the words im sorry. The ride home was just as quiet as I expected. The whole time I just reflected on the person I had turned into, and the f***ked up s***t I had been doin. I was disgusted wit my self in more ways than one. Court finally spoke breakin through the tension when we were half way home.
Court: So how long?
Shawn: Huh?
Court: How long were u and him f***kin around?
Shawn: A month.(i mumbled)
Court: WHAT!?
Shawn: Courtney im sorry I swear it just happened.
Court: So it just kept accidently happening over and f***kin over!?
Shawn: I know it was wrong and I feel like s***t for it, but he was my way to escape.
Court: Escape from what?
Shawn: Just stuff.
Court: Man nah shawty f***k all that just be real wit me.
Shawn: Ok fine. He helped me feel free from all these damn emotions.
Court: What the f***k u talkin bout bae?
Shawn: Courtney im in love wit u, and a couple other people.
Court: So u been f***kin around on me wit more than just Noah!?
Shawn: No thats not what im sayin.
Court: Well then u need to break this s***t down for me real f***kin fast!
Shawn: I went from havin no kind of love in over a year. To havin it come from 5 Different peopl in a few months. I know it was selfish, but I didnt know how to turn it down. To be honest I didnt wanna turn none of it down, so I just went wit it. I never f***ked nobody though until Noah came into the picture.
Court: So all this time what the f***k have I been to u.
Shawn: I love u courtney, and u have my heart. Its just I dont like to hurt people feelings, and be the reason for somebody being heart broken.
Court: Well u the champ at that s***t today. On top of all of this u made me feel like s***t for hidin that one thing from u, but this whole time u been havin all of these secrets.
Shawn: Bae im sorry.(i said tearin up)
Court: Thats not good enough man. U know I f***ked up and I even kept denyin it, but I didnt f***k up willingly. I was drunk when that s***t between me, and Noah happened. He only gave me head anyway I never f***ked his nasty ass.
Shawn: What? He told me yall had sex, and he never said nothin about yall being drunk.
Court: Even if he did does that still give u a f***kin reason to do what u did!?
Shawn:....
Court: Now yo ass aint got s***t to say!?
Shawn: I know I f***ked up ok damn!
Court: Well since we being so honest, and s***t finally comin out. After graduation I was thinkin about movin back down south. I was gone ask u to come wit me, but now I dont know.
Shawn: So what u tryna say u breakin up wit me?
Court:.....
Shawn: Ok...thats koo...I cant even be mad at u.
Court: I love u shawty, but our relationship seem like it got too many secrets and s***t.
Shawn: Ok I get it just take me home!
When we pulled up I got out expectin him to do the same, but he just sat in the car. I stood there for a second tryna see if he would get out but he started backin up.
Shawn: So u not comin in?
Court: Nah i'll be back to get my s***t im goin home.
I just stood there and watched him pull off. It was like watchin my heart drive off, and I had nobody to blame but myself. Just then I started thinkin about how I got myself into this situation, but more importantly how I was gonna get out. I went in the house to take a shower, and think about how I was gonna make this s***t right. I was tired of playin all these games, and im kinda glad its finally out in the open. This s***t was startin to become a burden heavier than I could carry. I got out the shower and got dress to get ready to go to Que's house. I might as well set him free from my web of lies too. This is something I never prepare my self for or thought of how I would do it. This is why ive always hated lying, and now I hate this s***t even more. Sometimes I wish I could just go to sleep and wake up wit my life back to normal before all this damn drama.
