We finally pulled up to Noah's house and just sat in the car for a minute. I looked over at shawn, and he grabbed my hand wit a serious look on his face.
Shawn: Courtney listen, if u really have done anything wit him that I dont know about now is the time to tell me. Forget about me gettin mad, and leavin u because u are mine. Im not gone lose u because of some b***h ass f***g, and I mean that. So before we go in here and he make s***t seem worse than what it is cuz I know them lil prissy ass gay boys can be over dramatic. If u have anything to tell me bae please dont let me find out from him.
I just sat there looking at him tryin to speak as my heart conflicted wit my mind. I know he just said he wouldnt flip out on me, but I dont want him to look at me as a liar either. Slipping into my thoughs I remembered the day that everything happened that started this secret.
Flashback>>>>>
I was chillin at Noah's crib just sippin on some henny to take my mind off of the arguement I just had wit shawn. We were arguin about that Tevon nigga again, and how I feel like they be around eachother too much. Things got a lil heated and he basically kicked me out as a result. Instead of goin to the crib though I really needed to vent and get some advice in the process. I wouldve talked to my mama, but she always takin his damn side about everything. Thats what I liked about Noah, he would give it to me straight up. Even though he dont really care for Shawn he would always tell me when I was wrong, and vice versa. I was explaining the situation to Noah while he sipped on his drink and took it all in. He was sittin at this desk by the computer and I was layin in his bed.
Noah: U want some more of this drink boo?
Court: Nah im good I think im almost at my limit.
Noah: Oh ok, but anyway I think u just being jealous NeNe.
Court: Man what I tell u about callin me that s***t.(i smiled)
Noah: Whatever nigga u like it.(he laughed)
Court: Anyway what u mean im just being jealous?
Noah: Exactly what the hell I said. How u gone try to tell him who he can and cant hang around because u think they like eachother. Im sure if he knew yo ass was over here he'd be callin u out for a being a hypocrite.
Court: A hypocrite! Man what the f***k ever its different wit us we dont like eachother.
Noah: Unh unh speak for yo self boo.
Court: Noah dont start that bulls***t fam.
Noah: There u go throwin that damn shade. U know u use to love the way I pop this p***y and throw it back on u. Shawn could never compare to me, and u always told me my head game was whats T.
Court: Exactly! I use to, but all of this belongs to shawn now so get it together shawty.
Noah: Yea yea yea.
We sat around just talkin and laughin about random s***t as the liquor kicked in. Noah had really become like one of my bestfriends minus the fact that he was still attracted to me. Eventually I fell to sleep layin down from being a lil too tipsy. I woke up to the feeling of somebody rubbin my abs, playin wit my nipples, and suckin my d***k. For whatever reason I thought I was back at shawn apartment so I never opened my eyes. I just laid back and enjoyed myself until I was about to bust then I looked up to watch him work.
Court: Aaaaaahhhhhh s***t suck that d***k bae.(i moaned) Damn Shawn when u learn how to suck d***k like that?
Noah: Nah boo, shawn could never do u like I could.
My eyes got big as hell when I realized that Noah was between my legs still lickin my d***k.
Court: YO WHAT THE F***K!!(i said pushing him off)
Noah: Whats wrong baby I thought u liked it.(he asked lookin hurt)
Court: WHY THE F***K WOULD U DO THAT TO ME!!
Noah: Well when I started u just laid there so I thought it was ok for me to keep goin.
Court: OH MY GOD MAN NO!! Why would u take advantage of me dude u know I was drunk fam!
Noah: Hold the f***k up nigga u wasnt that damn drunk so dont act like this is all my fault. I didnt make yo d***k get hard, and u show didnt stop me.
Court: Man u know im wit Shawn what the f***k is wrong wit u!?
Noah: Im so tired of hearin about Shawn this, Shawn that, f***k Shawn. What about me!?
Court: What about u!! I cant believe yo ass did this to me I f***kin trusted u dude!!
Noah: Courtney im sorry.
Court: Get the f***k off me fam!!
I stormed out the house mad as f***k because he put me in this f***ked up situation. I guess I shouldve expected that anyway though cuz he was always hungry for the d***k so I cant put all the blame on him. I guess I was just being stupid and tryna tell myself that he had the same understandin about our friendship that I did. I didnt talk to his ass for almost 3 months after that but he kept kissin my ass sayin how sorry he was, and I eventually gave in. I dont know why but I could never stay mad at Noah, he had that kind of effect on me. I was brought back to reality by shawn tightening his grip on my hand.
End Flashback>>>>>
I looked up at him to see the anticipation in his eyes as he waited for my response.
Court: N..Nah bae.(i said kissin him)
He looked at me in the eyes for a long time as if he was reading my soul. I started to get lost in his beautiful gray eyes, and feel guilty for lying to him once again. I dont know why I kept sayin no. I guess I was scared of tellin him out of fear that he would look at me like I was a liar. I didnt wanna be put in the same boat that he put that nigga Andre in. Even though he told me he wouldnt flip out I know shawn, and im scared as hell of losin this dude. He finally broke the silence wit a deep sigh.
Shawn: Iight then.
We got out the car and walked to the door my heart sinkin wit every step. Shawn got to the door and was just about to knock when he looked back at me one final time as if he was givin me one last chance to come clean. He knocked on the door and we heard Noah screamin for us to wait. When he finally came to the door and asked who it was I said my name which made him open the door instantly.
Noah: Wussup bo-
There was a awkward silence for a minute as he looked from me to shawn, and then looked shawn up and down.
Noah: Wussup NeNe, is something goin on that I should know about?
Before I could open my mouth Shawn started speakin for me.
Shawn: Nah everything cool Noah, me and yo boo like u was about to say just came to chill since u invited him over I though i'd tag along. He said u wouldnt mind if I came, aint that right NeNe.(he said shootin me a dirty look)
Court: Yea I hope it aint a problem Noah.
Noah: Nah...Its koo just wish u wouldve told me.
We walked in the house and all I could do was pray they didnt get into it. Shawn, and Noah both got smart ass mouths so I know s***t could turn ugly real quick. I started to regret not tellin him the truth when I got the chance too. Man I hope this s***t dont blow up in my face. I cant imagine losin shawn I love my shawty too much, and that s***t would hurt the f***k outta me.
Noah: So wussup Shawn, ive never really got the chance to hang wit u like that.
Shawn: Yea I know, I wonder why?(he said lookin at me)
Noah: I started to think u aint like me or something since courtney never brought u around.
Shawn: To be honest I didnt like u at first. U were just more than I was use to, but since Courtney seem to have such a bond wit u I figured u couldnt be all that bad.
Noah: Girl u givin me to much now keep it cute.(he laughed)
Shawn: Just being honest, and dont call me a girl.(he said lookin serious)
Noah: Boy calm down damn, but I can respect that though. NeNe why u being so quiet over there?
Court: Im just chillin lettin yall get to know eachother thats all.
Noah: Mhmm, well yall want somethin to drink my mama gone outta town so we aint gotta worry about nothin.
Shawn: Yea thats koo.
Shawn looked over at me and gave me a peck on the lips which eased some of the tension in my body. Noah came back wit the drink and we actually started havin fun. They were gettin along better than I thought, and actually turned out to have a lot in common. I even kinda started gettin jealous because they were gettin a little too friendly if u ask me. I brushed the thought off my shoulders, and just enjoyed the fact that Noah didnt put me on blast.
Court: I'll be back yall I gotta use the bathroom.
Shawn: Ok bae.(he said givin me a kiss)
Noah: Ok wrap that s***t up I dont like feelin like the third wheel!(he laughed)
I went up to the bathroom to take a piss. That damn alcohol went straight through me, but then again vodka always did that to me. I was in the bathroom for like ten minutes, yea I really had to piss. As I walked back down stairs I got a strange vibe from not only Shawn, but Noah too. Like they had exchanged words or something while I was gone. The weird thing is they didnt look mad, but almost nervous for some reason. Once again I just brushed it off and enjoyed the thought of them potentially becoming friends. When we left they had actually hugged eachother sayin goodbye. Shawn was real quiet on the way home like he was thinkin hard about sum, but I didnt bother him about it.
