I left Noah's house feeling guilty as hell, and lower than low. Not only did I cheat on Courtney, but I loved every second of it. I had become everything I stood against in the last month of my secret relationship wit Noah. I was a liar, a cheater, and most of all a hypocrite. Everytime we did it I told myself that it would be the last time, but it just kept happening. Noah was my escape away from all the emotional confusion that being around everybody would put me through. Wit him it was just sex, and he understood that just like I did. Apart of me felt bad for playin Courtney the way that I was, but I felt even worse for stringin everybody else along in the process. Lately ive been very distant wit Courtney, and he complains about it all the time. Sayin I spend more time wit Noah than I do wit him, and that I might as well be f***kin him instead. I laughed at my self thinkin "only if u knew", and ironically I was gettin ready to go over there anyway.
Court: Bae cant u just stay home tonight.
Shawn: No, how about u just come wit us.
Court: Man im tired of seeing Noah ass, and he suppose to be MY damn bestfriend not yours. Yall act like yall been knowin eachother forever or some s***t.
Shawn: Well u the one that wanted us to get along right?
Court: Yea, but thats all I wanted.
Shawn: Awww u jealous.(i said kissin all over his face)
Court: Come on man move.(he said laughin)
Shawn: U aint gotta lie.
Court: Ok maybe I am, but thats cuz I love u.(he said pickin me up and layin me on the bed)
Shawn: Stop what are u doin.(i asked laughin)
Court: Unh unh.
He started kissing, and suckin all over my neck. Reluctantly I started to get into the mood as he worked his magic. Just when he was really gettin into it my phone started ringin.
Shawn: Bae..(kiss)..My phone.
Court: Just..(kiss)..Let it ring.
Shawn: But it might be Noah.
When I said that he stopped kissin me, and looked at me wit anger in his eyes.
Court: So the f***k what!
Shawn: Bae come on dont act like that.(i said answerin the phone)
Court: Man what the f***k ever shawty.
Shawn: Hello.
Noah: Wussup boo.
Shawn: Whats good, u ready?
Noah: Actually thats what I was callin u about. Something came up and im gone have to chill wit u some other time.
Shawn: Oh, iight thats koo.
Noah: Dont be mad I promise i'll make it up to u.
Shawn: Nah its koo. So what came up that was so important?
Noah: My mama need me to help her wit some stuff thats all.
Shawn: Aw ok, well have fun wit that and we can just get up whenever.
Noah: Ok then ttyl.
Court: So what happened yo boyfriend cancelled on u.
Shawn: That aint my damn boyfriend!
Court: Dont be yellin at me nigga, and why the f***k u so mad anyway what was yall about to do?
Shawn: I told u we were just goin out thats all.
Court: I hope thats all.
Shawn: What the f***k is that suppose to mean?
Court: Nothin at all, its just that ever since yall been hangin out u been actin funny.
Shawn: How the f***k am I actin funny?
Court: U be actin real shadey, and distant towards me. Whenever that nigga call u its like he yo priority, and u forget u got a f***kin man. He dont barely even talk to my ass no more either.
Shawn: Oh my God really!?
Court: Yea really. I remember when u couldnt stand to be around that nigga, and away from me. Now u treat me like im a damn germ or somethin.
Shawn: Yo ass trippin, and im gettin tired of this jealousy s***t. At first it was something goin on between me and tevon, now Noah.
Court: Im just sayin, I know what kinda person that nigga is.
Shawn: And what kind of person is that Courtney!?
Court: The kind that cant keep his hands to his damn self!
Shawn: And how the f***k would u know that? Are u tryna tell me somethin?
Court: Man dont start that s***t again, but all im sayin is I dont like u and him being all buddy buddy. That s***t aint cool wit me, and I really dont want yall hangin out like that no more.
Shawn: Nigga I dont know my daddy, and u damn show aint him. U cant tell me what the f***k to do, and especially since u tryna say u dont trust me.
Court: I aint sayin I dont trust u, but I am sayin I dont trust him.
Shawn: Same damn thing.
Court: Man whatever fam f***k it.
Shawn: Naw hell naw cuz this the first time im hearin all of this s***t. So aparently this somethin that been on yo mind for a while so let it all out.
Court: Ok then since u wanna hear it i'll ask. Are u f***kin him?
I was thrown off by his answer, but kept my composure.
Shawn: WHAT!?
Court: U heard what the f***k I said!
Shawn: Now u the one thats actin funny, and u need to gone somewhere wit that bulls***t.
He walked up to me and got in my face talkin in a calm, but firm tone.
Court: Look I aint no damn fool, and I can tell when its some s***t goin on. I can tell by the way u act towards that nigga, and talk to him that its somethin because its the same way u use to act towards me. Im gone say this one time, and one time only. Stop hangin around that foul ass nigga and im not f***kin playin.
Shawn: He wasnt so foul when he was suckin yo d***k though was he!?
His face dropped when he heard me say that, and he was speechless.
Shawn: Yea nigga, he told me. What aint got s***t to say now?
Court: Bae I swear I was drunk thats the only reason it happened.
Shawn: It dont even matter no more because u did exactly what I told u not to f***kin do over and over.
Court: Bae im sorry.
Shawn: Just drop it.
Court: So what u sayin u knew all this time?
Shawn: Duh!
Court: And u still stayed wit me even though I lied?
Shawn: Yea because I love yo big head ass, and u still dont seem to understand how much.
Court: Bae im sorry I swear I am.
Shawn: Its ok just let it go cuz I been over that s***t.
He walked up to me, and pulled me into a passionate kiss. The truth was that Noah had just recently told me about what happened. At first I was pissed at Noah, but I was in no position to hold a grudge against him. Especially since I been f***kin his brains out for over a month. It was also too late to be mad at Court for lyin when I got my own secrets. He finally pulled away from me wit a smile on his face.
Court: I love u shawty.(he smiled)
Shawn: I love u too bae.
The next day at school me and Court seemed to have a little more of a connection than we have in the past month. It didnt come without a little unwanted attention though. We were hugged up at my locker when Que walked up lookin annoyed.
Que: Wussup yall.
Court: Whats good fam.
Shawn: Hey Que.
Que: I see yall doin better.(he said givin me a dirty look)
Court: Yea, me and yo bro just hit a little rough patch thats all.
Que: Aw, thats good to know. Aye shawn can I holla at u for a sec.
Shawn: Yea wussup?
Que: Its kinda private.(he said lookin at Court)
Court: Well ima just see u on lunch hour shawty gone head and talk to ya boy.(he walked off)
Que: So what the f***k is that?
Shawn: Que he my boyfriend how do u want me to act?
Que: I want u to act like u been tellin me u love me for the past month.
Shawn: I do, but I cant just break up wit him for no reason.
Que: I understand that now, which is exactly why im gettin back wit angie.
Shawn: Wh..what? Why?
Que: I told yo ass I wasnt gone wait on u forever. Besides she unlike yo ass aint playin all these damn games wit me.
Shawn: I told u I was workin on leavin him I just need time.
Que: It dont take a month to say its over dawg.
Shawn: Look can we just talk about this later?
Que: Aint s***t to talk about I made up my mind.(he said walkin off)
Shawn: Que please.(i said grabbin his arm wit tears in my eyes)
He just looked at me for a long time then sighed.
Que: Iight man come by my crib later, and we can "talk".(he said wit air quotes)
Shawn: iight.
I went to class, and was met by Tevon as usual. This time he seemed a little more happy than normal though. Since our last encounter he had been a little down around me, but today was fine.
Tevon: Wussup bro.(he smiled)
Shawn: Wussup, why u so happy?
Tevon: Remember ole boy I was tellin u about?
Shawn: How could I forget.(i said sarcastically)
Tevon: Very funny, but look we made it official lastnight. I want u to meet em though, and make sure he aint no hoe or nothin. I know u been gay longer than me so u prolly know the dude.
Shawn: So u wanna introduce ME to YO boyfriend.(i laughed)
Tevon: Well, yea. U can bring courtney, and it can be like a double date.
Shawn: That koo I guess, so when u tryna do this?
Tevon: Today if u free.
Shawn: Yea but I cant stay too long.
Tevon: Oh iight thats koo.
I told Court about it and he seemed more than happy about Tevon havin a boyfriend now. I guess that eased his insecurity about the thought of me and him havin somethin goin on. Me on the other hand was more than jealous that he actually goin wit somebody else. When we got out of school we went home to change then headed to Tevon house. He let us in after sayin wussup then walked us into the living room to introduce us to ole dude. Little did he know how right he was about me knowin the dude. My face dropped when I saw none other than Noah.
