Aster
I sat nervously in the waiting room bouncing my knee and observing the other women with their partners by their sides. I don't know why I didn't just tell Josh the moment I got home after checking those test with Jenna, but what if they weren't accurate? I felt my heart rate increasing and tears welling up in my eyes when I realized I couldn't do this alone. I considered calling Jenna again, but I knew I couldn't do this without Josh.
I wiped away my tears and stood up to go call Josh, the guilt of not telling him only weighing my heart down more. I sat outside the office and dialed his number with shaky hands and waited for him to pick up. It only took two rings.
"Hey," he panted into the phone. "How are the errands going?"
"Um, good. How's your run?" I asked avoiding what I really called for.
"I just got home. What's up do you need help with something?" He asked and I heard him kick off his shoes in the background. I let out a shaky breath, already feeling sick.
"Um," I bit down on my tongue for a moment as he let out a hum for me to continue. "I, uh. I'm at the hospital-"
"Oh my god are you okay? What's going on? I'm on my way!" He rushed out probably already slipping his shoes back on.
"Baby, calm down I'm okay." I reassured ignoring my nerves.
"Then what's going on? I'm on my way now." He said starting up the car.
"I'll explain when you get here, I don't think I should tell you over the phone. I'm on the third floor in the office building; office 312." I explained quickly. He sighed obviously nervous and frustrated but said he was on his way and would be here soon.
I took the time to try and calm my nerves. I didn't know why I was so nervous, this is a good thing, right? Josh won't be upset. I'm freaking out for no reason. I took a deep breath and leaned back against the wall to regain my balance before I was snapped out of my trance from two hands gripping my arms.
My eyes popped open to meet Josh's worries ones, and before I could even think he rushed out, "Are you okay? Why are we here?"
"Did you not pay attention to any signs while walking over to this side of the building?" I teased and pulled him into a hug to hide my face away.
"I was kinda worried sick so not not really." He laughed. "What's with the hug?"
"I might be pregnant?" I blurted out in more of a question. I felt my heart beating so fast it was physically hurting my chest.
"Wait what?"
I pulled away and looked at the floor nervously. "There's a chance that I could be pregnant." He didn't say anything for a while, making me fill with regret. "I understand if this isn't what you wanted it's fine you could always leave me it's okay I know this wasn't planned-"
"No! Aster what are you saying! This is great!" He was practically yelling with tears in his eyes as he pulled me into a hug and spun me around.
I laughed and let out a sigh of relief. "We don't know yet! My appointment is in like ten minutes."
"Well then we better get back in there!" He grinned and pulled the door open doing an over dramatic gesture for me to walk in.
I giggled and went in, sitting in the chair that seemed to be a little less uncomfortable now that Josh was by my side.
hello i'm alive, and might actually start writing again??
